infinite shades of blue (journal part I)

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mom called today
she had some disappointing news to tell me
once again

I hung up
told her I have no time for this

the thing is
I have all the time in the world
and then some

how do you love someone so much
and hate them all the same
and how do you forgive

how do I forgive you mom?
and could you ever forgive me for the things I've said?

after all
when you and dad sat me down when I was 7 to tell me you're getting a divorce
the only words I could choke out through the tears were
I want to live with mom