infinite shades of blue (journal part I)

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I hate how people downplay the ruins that are left after a family splits
and how it is always the kids who are the ones to walk down the path and clear up the ruble
and it is the kids who are going to have to live with that for the rest of their lives
the notion that they could've had a family
a mom and a dad at the same dinner table but because of them
it is not their reality
and it never will be

and to say that this is normal
that this is what happens all the time and to deem it as okay because of that
is something I can't forgive this world
I can't forgive the world for normalising divorce

but the world doesn't need my forgiveness
and I have to move on and be fine with the fact that saying my parents got a divorce when I was six will never be acknowledged

maybe this is what I should've begun with
I should have
because no matter the society stigma around this subject
it still hurts
it's still very much not okay
if only for the mere fact that I would've been a happy kid
if only for the wellbeing of a preschooler
and for having someone to call us