infinite shades of blue (journal part I)

~101~

I say I hate you
I say I will leave you in the dust if you keep going like this
that there'll be no one to bring you water when you're old and sick

but what I really mean is that
I will give my very last cent to you from my poor ass linguist salary
because that's what you always did
and because despite everything
despite maybe the fact that I could never forgive you
I will never leave you