infinite shades of blue (journal part I)

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yesterday I cried after we talked on the phone

and I didn't make an angry entry about how much I hated you for not saying what I needed you to say
because I don't
I don't hate you
or rather
I miss you more than I hate you

I'm not saying it didn't hurt
it did
I'm just so tired of calling you the villain when I know for a fact it is not true
because the villain has been me all along