BURN (Wattys2015?)

you are not my everything

i love desperately

i love too fast

and too passionately

i end up focusing on a single being

and when they disappoint me

because they weren't the same great thing

that ruled and reigned supreme in my mind,

i break them

because it hurt me

to discover that there was really no magic,

after all

so i hurt them

i suppose i do it out of vengeance

an ugly and terrible and bitter vengeance

because i didn't get my way

because they weren't what i had created them to be

but with you,

i fell in love slowly

and quietly

there wasn't a rush

there wasn't an unmeasurable amount

of passion or lust or imagination

that overwhelmed me from seeing you

for who you are

i saw you

for you

i didn't create a new you in my mind

because something divine had already made

something so beautiful

(not perfect, but something strange and different

and refreshing and amazing and absolutely real)

i didn't put you on a pedestal

you stood tall enough on your own

i fell in love with you

very slowly

and very gently

but it wasn't desperate

i was just desperate

to have you as my own

you are not my everything

i haven't made you into the planet i exist on

because if you were my everything

you would end up as my nothing

because you would be so distant and unreachable

like another galaxy

i don't want to exist for you

i want to exist with you

i don't want you to be my planet

i want you to live on my planet with me

you are not my everything

instead you are my one thing

the one thing that puts a different kind of smile on my face

and a different kind of love that infests my heart

the one thing that i like to look at in the morning

and look at in the afternoon

and look at in the evening

because my eyes can't seem to take you all in

because you have all these hidden treasures and secrets

that you don't intend on showing all at once

you're an adventure

something and someone to explore

and i'll gladly go blindly into you

but you've given me a map

(thank you)

you are not my everything

instead,

you're my dear,

and my darling,

my baby,

and my love

and i think that is quite enough