"i don't forgive you, i never will"
you have every right to say that
i guess
but i still don't understand it
because what i did wasn't as bad
as what you make it out to be
"i don't have a grudge against you"
you tell me that, but obviously you do
because otherwise why won't you forgive me?
holding a grudge is the the basic definition of unforgiveness
i just don't understand why you lie to my face like that
but i guess i've never really understood you
"i've moved on from this"
no, i don't think you really have
because if you moved on you'd had forgiven me
or maybe it's not really me who you need to forgive
maybe you just can't forgive yourself
but, i want you to know
that i've forgiven myself
and i can't help that your bitterness is only going to hurt you
i really hope you don't think it's going to hurt me
because it's not going to hurt me
i just thought it'd be easier to move on
see, i've forgiven you
"but i never did anything wrong"
you aren't blameless in this, darling
we've both screwed up
but i've forgiven you
and i've forgiven myself
and i want you to be happy
but you can't be happy if you won't forgive me
because in not forgiving someone
you're letting the past eat you away
you want to know something?
i love you
and i forgive you
i love you
and i forgive you
even if you won't love yourself
and forgive me
i'm sorry for what i've done
but you still refuse to forgive me
and i'm sorry that that's how you're going to be
i'm sorry how unhappy you are
and i'm sorry that i'm going to move on
even if you refuse to
truth be told,
i pity you
QUOTE TO THINK ON:
"People withhold their forgiveness, thinking that it makes them badass. But really, the unwillingness
to forgive is merely the wishing that things were better. You wish that you had better, you wish that
someone else were better so they could have treated you better... it's you making wishes. And that's
not badass. To forgive is to be able to look at the person and say "I accept that you weren't any better
than what you were", "I accept what you were you and couldn't have been what I wished you to be", "I
accept that things were the way they were and weren't any better." The ability to forgive is intertwined
with the ability to accept the reality of the way things are/ the way a person is or was. You stop wishing
things and you just accept. And hope is what says to you: "One day you'll have what's better."
--C. JoyBell C.
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