Our Secret (A Magcon Fanfiction)

The Book of Love

~ Melissa ~

Den Morgen darauf bin ich extra früh aufgestanden, denn die Neugierde Sammys Buch zu lesen war zu groß. Langsam & vorsichtig stand ich auf & mein Blick galt sofort Sam, der friedlich und mit einem leichten Lächeln tief und fest schlief. Nachdem ich mich frisch gemacht habe, nahm ich das Buch & ging in die Küche, um mir Kaffee zu machen.

Auf der Terasse suchte ich mir einen schönen Platz, um die neu aufgegehende Sonne zu beobachten. Nachdem ich mir einen Zopf gebunden hatte, umarmte ich die Tasse mit meiner Hand & öffnete die erste Seite

Dallas, 07.02.2014
Sometimes when I look at her & she is looking back at me, I can see something. This hint of something more, something she is feeling but can't say. When our eyes meet, it's like we are instantly connected. I know no one catches it but me & her, but I like it that way. It's like our secret. God, her eyes are gorgeous. I want nothing more than to look in her eyes, cause it's when we are looking at eachother that we end up saying the most.

Dallas, 09.02.2014
Who did that to her? Who fucked her up so bad emotionally that she has completely shut dowm anyone who tries to help her. She refuses to open up & let someone love or care about her.

Ich erinnere mich an den Tag. Wir sind nach dem Essen spazieren gegangen & ich habe ihm davon erzählt, was wegen Zac passiert ist. Nie hätte ich gedacht, dass er sich Sorgen um mich gemacht hat.

Omaha, 01.03.2014
While I lay here waiting for her to text me back, I can't help thinking about what my life has become when I met her. Waiting & wanting her has been in the focus of my thoughts. Knowing that one day all my daydreams of us being together will finally happen. She gives me a reason to wake up in the morning & smile. Just smile for no particular reason. As days go by my heart is finally coming out of his spot as a player & wanting to feel what love really feels like. I just want her to know that wherever this road may take us, doesn't matter if we stay just friends or end up in a relationship, she will always be in my heart. Life hasn't been this beautiful for me until she walked in.

Omaha, 02.03.2014
I'm undeniable deeply in love with her. I've been living in cloud 9 thinking of her. We hide our feeling from each other so well, but I can feel it deep in my heart that she feels the same. I know with all my heart that she is meant for me as I am meant for her. Hopefully I'm not wrong.

Du bist es nicht, baby. Du bist es nicht.

Los Angeles, 25.03.2014
I have always been told not to fall in love too quickly. That like wildfire it will burn out in the end. But those are the ones that have never met someone who made the hairs on their arms stand up with the way they say their name. Fuck your advice, I'll take the risk of being burnt if it means loving her.

Los Angeles, 26.03.2014
God fucking damn it I'm so in love with her & I dont know what's happening to me because I've never felt this way. It feels good & safe but it also feels like I'm being lit on fire & every single muscle in my body is breaking down. I'm fucking afraid of love but all I know is that I haven't loved anyone more than I love her.

Los Angeles, 06.04.2014
I like the phrase "we are together". Like how "we are dating" because that's a little generic. What's dating anways? But saying that you are together is like saying you know this person is here for me & I'm here for her & whatever happens we'll face it TOGETHER. Just like we are one, we are each others person right?

Richtig, du bist meins & ich bin deins.

Daytona, 03.05.2014
I'm not sure what love is. I never experienced it before. I think it's hearing her say 'You are an idiot' while her smile betrays the words that just came out of her mouth. It's getting a FaceTime call at 8 am so she can show you her outfit, because she thinks she looks cute. I think love is blurting out exactly how you feel about her when she asks you why you're looking at her like that. It's unplanned & sappy. Love is being afraid to let her know about certain parts of yourself but telling her anyways. It's making breakfast with her, dancing with her while passionately singing the wrong lyrics just to hear her laugh. I'm not sure what love is but if all the things I wrote down are true I might be in love.