The Sweet Husband

Pain in dealing with Mental Illness

when sheryl first got sick I had a really hard time with it. I wanted her to just stop acting like she was crazy.

That did not go away for a long time. It actually helped me when her dad started acting like she was possessed by demons, because then for some reason, since I did not believe that, I could believe she was ill.

It took a lot longer, several years, before I accepted the fact that she will probably always have this, even if at times it may get better.

When I start to get frustrated with her, I always get a cup of coffee, sit down and start examining how I would feel, if I firmly believed something to be real, if I had felt that snake bite me, felt it go into my back, and the fangs be so long that they came through my back and stuck into my arm, and not a single solitary person believed me.

I can understand why she leaves, she gets to the point that we are all crazy, because we are not afraid of all the horrible things that she sees and she thinks the monsters are going to get us and we are doing nothing to stop it and she is going to run away and not let them get her too.

That has to be horrible and there is nothing that I, or anyone else can do to stop it.