Ghost

Chapter One Hundred Three

Spencers  POV

Nats face instantly drops. "What? What do you mean you're going back to Russia?"

"Well, once Lena gets back from her mission, I figured we'd go back home," I say hesitantly.

"Why? Everyone knows now. You can stay here. What about figuring out the reality stone?" She says with some confusion.

I take a glance over to Tony.

"Don't look at me. I thought we still had some work to do. There's still things we could try. I'm sure we'll get you some answers."

"Well.. I don't think I need to know the answers. I don't need to know why I held an infinity stone without dying, I'm just glad I didn't die. I don't need to know why I have the ability. I don't need these powers. I'm a tattoo artist, there's nothing.."

"You could be an avenger! You could use these powers. Even the powers you already have, you would be a perfect fit," Nat starts enthusiastically. "We could fight together," she speaks softer and with that smile.

"Tasha.. I love that we have had all of this time together. I love that the avengers know everything and I'm free. But this life isn't for me. I'm not meant to be a hero. I'm not suppose to be known."

"Don't say that. You have such a big heart, you would fit right in with the team. You already do! Right, guys?" Nat says turning to look at the team who look slightly uncomfortable.

I don't blame them. I didn't expect to have this conversation.. fight? In front of everyone.

But everyone starts talking at once.

"Of course she would, but.." Tony says.

"Spencer would be great to work with.." Wanda says with a smile and a nose scrunch. I smile at it.

"Uh, I think so? Hope says she's great. And I bet the teleporting thing is really cool!" Scott chips in.

"Lady Spencer would be a great addition," Thor bellows.

"Oh, I would love to see Spencers talents," Val says, sending me a wink before she finishes off her drink.

Okay, I don't think any of this is helping my cause.

"Ok. I'm really flattered everyone. Really, I appreciate all your kind words. But.. I'm content living in Russia with my best friend, giving people dope ass tattoos. And I can always come visit! Teleporting only takes a few seconds. I don't want to intrude on what you already have here."

"Oh, you wouldn't be intruding, Spencer. You're already a part of the family," Steve says, giving me a genuine smile.

"I am so grateful for that. And I see you all as family, too. But I have so much waiting for me back in Russia.."

"What? So am I not enough to keep you here? Your tattoos and home with my sister are more important?" Nat spits out.

Well this escalated quickly.

"Woah, love. That's not what I'm saying. Of course you're enough. You're more than enough. But this is what you love to do with your team. This was never the plan. We barely thought I'd survive telling everyone let alone join the team," I say trying to lighten the mood just a little bit.

I look over to the rest of the group and I see that they are slowly trying to ditch the awkward fight before them.

   I have to cringe. I didn't want it to turn into this. I wanted to have a calm conversation together where we understood it might be difficult, that we each have something we love to do and that it puts us a distance away, but with my powers, it wouldn't be that bad.