Ghost

Chapter Fifteen

Spencer POV

   It has now been a couple months since our double date with Bucky and Steve. I think our relationship has only gotten stronger and it couldn't be going any better. Since she was fully living at my place in Greece, she would only fly out when the avengers need her or some crazy alien messes with the universe. Living together? Fantastic. Sex: all the time. Two people to do the chores. And two people to sing as loudly as possible whenever we want.

    I should have done this a lot sooner, but I'm glad I'm doing it now and who I'm doing it with.

   And me? Oh I am fan-fucking-tastic. Besides the aforementioned reasons, I've been able to really hone in my cooking skills and I'm killing it at the restaurant. I practically run the joint at this point.

    Oh, you want to know about my little side hustle? Yeah, I'm still doing that too. I know what you're thinking, why would I keep doing that shit when I seemingly have it all?

    I'll tell you. For one, it's been hard to just give up the adrenaline rush, the feeling I get after executing the perfect plan, and uh, of course, the money hasn't hurt either. I mean I have to pay for this places upkeep somehow.

    And if we want to get really deep here, it's kind of a back up plan. Here me out. I've never really been in a long lasting relationship. Or any relationship for that matter. So not knowing when all this might blow up in my face, its the escape. My way out.

   Carol is still my long game but you never know what the future holds. If she finds out what I've been doing, who I am? Or I mess this up any other number of ways. I mean it's not totally out of reach, I've almost blown this on more than one occasion already. So yeah, I may be jumping ahead and I may be letting doubt run that part of my life. I know, I know. I'm disappointed in me too.

        What happened to going all in with Carol and leaving the old ways behind? It's been a little harder than I thought to rip that bandaid. Even ripping it slowly, I've seemingly enjoyed the slight sting.

       Don't worry, the plan is still focused on Carol and our life together. I'm just setting aside more cash. Little extra cushion for our future? I'm just trying to be sure we're well off.. okay I'm making excuses.

      Just a few more jobs and it's all behind me. I do kind of have a plan now. It was just taking longer to get there. Whatever.

    Back to the bright side of things, we're both alive and in love. Tony and I have met up a few times more to raise hell. He's been back to my house in Greece and we've torn through some of the cities like they were our bitch. Carol wasn't always impressed.

       Wanda and I have stayed besties, Carol understands that's as far as my love for Wanda goes and nothing will change the love I have for her. We've all actually hung out together too, it's been nice.

    I have somehow avoided going to the avengers little family house thing. I just can't. That's a little too risky for my taste and I have not gotten this far along by being a dumbass. Having them at my house was already pretty dumb.

    And just maybe Carol and I have met Steve and Bucky for a few more double dates. It's actually been kind of nice to have another couple to do stuff with. And I think they seem to enjoy it too.

    Currently we're sitting outside adding more sun to our sun kissed skin. I'm reading a book as I've started collecting them it seems. I can't help it. There's something about getting a new book and adding it to the ever expanding shelves I have to keep building. But it's satisfying. If you know, you know.