Ghost

Chapter Twenty Three

                                  Spencer's POV

      It's been a month. I know it's not really a long time, but damn does it feel like it. To be fair, Alexei said they usually only see Yelena once, maybe twice a year. And considering she only left a month ago, it's safe to assume she won't be back anytime soon. But one can hope. Because I very quickly got bored once she was gone.

      Only took me about a week before I got back into my old job scene. Only small, under the radar jobs, I promise. Trust me, it's my life on the line. Though it's been a rough go, I still plan on living a long time. Plenty of things to do and see still.

      Since I can only take small jobs, I've only taken three. So the money has been okay. But it's still been fun to get back out there, even if it isn't fully as the Ghost. Although I don't really feel much like the Ghost anymore? If I ever really did. It wasn't a name I gave myself. It just stuck.

      I have another job I'm going on next week. Just another steal some evidence so there's no proof thing. And no, It isn't for anything criminal. Not legally anyway. Some bloke got pictures of this dude cheating on his girl. So I've got to snatch the pictures, making sure they're returned to the culprit.

      So yeah, like I said. Very low on the totem pole stuff. It's not what I'm use to but it's money. It's better than sitting around, twiddling my thumbs.

       Oh? You want to know about the poor girl who is getting cheated on? I have no doubt this dude will get caught again. I mean who cheats in the middle of the mall? The guy gave me way too many details. Too. Many. Details.

    Anyway, it's just a waiting game until then pretty much. I have some tattoo appointments set up every day until then. I even have an appointment set up for me. What am I getting? Oh that's a surprise for very few to see..

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       Okay. Now it's been three months since she left. I'm getting so desperate for something to do, I've started taking slightly bigger jobs. I know! I know. I shouldn't be. But you know how you get a scratch that you just have to itch? Well once I was back in the game, I couldn't help it. The small jobs were insanely dull. There was no planning, hardly any trickery, and no real danger. I needed more.

      Yeah, I have no idea how I got along doing nothing before Yelena was here to keep me entertained. But without someone to hang out with, the hours after work seem to drag. Sure, I go to the karaoke bar and it's fun but not the same.

      Occasional I pick up a girl and we make it back to my place. Nothing substantial though. Just little flings that pitter out after a night or two. Which is great, don't get me wrong, it works for what I do.

      I miss having someone solid around, ya know? Someone that's there. Someone to eat dinner with and sing to new songs with. To venture out with. Yup. The loneliness is really hitting me. I never realized how lonely I was before. I guess I never waited around much to feel it.

      Maybe that's my problem? Maybe I'm waiting around for something that won't happen. I should be proactive. Get back to where I was. Jumping around to new cities for new, very well paying jobs. It's the life I was destined to lead right?

      Then reality really hits me. Thanos, as far as I know, is still out there. And until he is dead, I can't put myself out there. I'd be a ripe raspberry plump for the picking. Or baked Alaska, waiting to catch fire. Oo or kernels just waiting to be popped.

      Yeah, okay I'm hungry.

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      Six months. She's been gone for six months. I haven't heard one way or the other if Thanos is gone and since I can't be officially back, I've still only been taking the riskiest jobs I dare. Which are still way too damn small.