Ghost

Chapter One Hundred Sixty Four

                              Spencers POV

I think I'm in a dream.

You know those dreams where you know you're falling, that sensation taking over you, but you never seem to know what you had fallen from or how long you've been falling?

Or you are trying to run as fast as you can but only seem to make it a few feet.

Like you're stuck in a kind of slow motion while everything around you is going at super speed.

       Like you're coming out of a surgery and you know people are talking to you but it all sounds like background noise.

You're just there, not really having any control of what is happening. Both aware of what was going on but nothing is being processed. You are just watching as the things happen around you.

That's about what I'm feeling right now.

Because I know I heard Gamora tell Wanda to tell me how she knew me from our time in hydra.

       And I know she was in hydra. And I know I was in hydra. I know we were both experimented on. But.. we were in the same location at the same time?

      I feel like I would remember that..

      I do know they messed with my brain and memory while I was there. Which has been a little bit of a blessing considering what I had to do while I was there.

      But.. I feel like I would know... I would remember her.

      Even if I didn't know her from hydra.. I would have recognized her when I saw her again in Greece.. right?

      Could my mind be that messed up?

      But..

      Holy shit.

      Does that mean.. wouldn't that mean she knew who I was? That I had some kind of powers or something?

       That whole time I talked to her about being an investor.. and she knew?

       Or is it possible that she didn't know?

       Could it be possible that she didn't remember either? Maybe they messed with both of our heads. It would definitely make sense.

       Or maybe, at least, she didn't know about my abilities or any part of that.

       My head is just overflowing with so many questions I don't even know where to start or how to sort them out.

       There's only one thing that can help my confusion.

       I look up, finally trying to take in what is happening around me, let it in to be processed.

       There's plenty of people talking.

       Nat seems mad as she's talking, or, yelling? At others. Mainly Wanda. Yelena seems to be doing the same thing. Both firing words at her that I haven't fully processed yet. But then it switches to worry as Nat glances back at me. 

        I'm sure it's freaked her out that I've zoned out for.. well, I have no idea. And I guess if she couldn't help me she was going to be all protective.

       It's hot seeing Nat all riled up.

       She must have noticed I'm a little more with it as she puts her full attention to me, kneeling down in front of me. I let my eyes focus on her.