Ghost

Chapter One Hundred Five

                                       Nats POV

        Watching Spencer step away from me brought a new pain to my chest. Seeing the pain in her eyes shatters me.

        I caused that pain. I hurt her so much that I drove her to teleport away.

        But she came back.

        She came back with some of my favorite things and a duffel bag to stay. She came back for me. For us. She came back expecting to make up, expecting to talk through it, knowing that we would. That we'd be okay.

        I really don't deserve her.

        "Your silence isn't really helping right now, Nat," Spencer speaks softly.

        Right. I still have to dig myself out of the grave I'm in.

       "I didn't sleep with Wanda, technically.."

       "Why would Yelena say you did? And while I was still recovering? How could you.."

      "I didn't.."

      "And this whole time, you thought I was going to cheat on you? But were you really just freaked out because you did? Worried that I would find out?" She's speaking quietly now, but she seems to be thinking through things out loud, almost accusing.

       "Spence, bub. Its not what you think, I didn't cheat."

       "Then please, do explain. Because right now.. I don't know what to think."

       "When I watched the movie with the team, I had stayed longer and watched another one with Wanda. But I didn't sleep with her."

      She brings her hand and runs it down her face. Shutting her eyes for a moment.

      "So.. while I was waking up, you were with Wanda?"

     "Well, yes, but.."

      She turns to Yelena. "You saw them together?"

    "They were together when I went to get Nat and tell her you were awake. But you did walk in at the wrong time.."

     "So she was in Wandas arms as I woke up. I wanted to see my girlfriend whom I missed. Who I would have I thought would be worried about me. But instead, she was with another woman. The same woman she won't even let me train alone with." She turns back to me, "was that out of jealousy of her or me?"

      She's mad. She's hurt. Even more than she was. And it's my fault. I have to fix this and I'm doing a shit job of it. I don't know how I ended up in this mess. Well, I do..

      "Bub, I didn't cheat. I would never cheat on you. You know that I would never.."

      "No. Right now, I'm a little lost. After all of the shit you thought I did. I'm not saying I think you would cheat. I don't want to believe that. But I do I think we need to have a conversation just the two of us."

       I don't really like how she said that. I am immediately on edge. A conversation with the two of us? I really hope she doesn't mean.. no. She couldn't want to break up. You don't bring someone their favorite things and a bag of clothes if you're going to break up.

        Unless..

        Unless she brought all of that because she knew she was bringing bad news. And the bag is my stuff she had..

        I take a deep breath.

       "Okay. Let's go to my room."

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