V & V - Rageous Rageon Rise

Breathe Me

Mateo POV:

*BM*

*BM BM*

*BM*

*BM BM*

I hear the slow, faint beating of my heart in my ears. I can't see or hear anything besides the beating of my heart.

*BM*

*BM BM*

*BM*

*BM BM*

I slowly feel the sensation of something soft rubbing against what I believe to be my cheek. I can't really feel anything. I can't tell what's going on.

*BM*

*BM BM*

*BM*

*BM BM*

I feel more nudging, then the sensation of something semi-wet on my cheek. It keeps nudging me, getting me to feel more and more of my body. Slowly, very slowly, I start to scrunch my facial muscles in response to the nudging. I weakly attempt to blink a few times before painfully opening my eyes.

I can't see much. I close my eyes, giving up from the exhaustion I feel. I continue to feel nudging, which encourages me to try to open my eyes again. I open them, my vision a little clearer now. It takes me a bit of blinking until I see I'm being nudged by Raúl y Rocío.

I try to lift my hand, yet I can't. It feels like... nothing in my body is working. I try to turn my head, but I can't do that. I close my eyes, lying for who knows how long until I open my eyes again. This time, extremely painfully, I can slightly turn my head to the side. 

I see the horses no longer standing by me but in front of someone. Who... who is that? I look at whoever is on the floor... until my mind makes the connection to who I'm seeing. It's Dom. 

His hand is so close to mine. Why is he on the floor? Why am I on the floor? Why am I in so much pain? I close my eyes, not letting my mind think about too much, as my head hurts incredibly bad.

I lay in my field for who knows how much time. Nighttime falls, and I'm still on the floor. I attempt to sit up, yet even lifting my head is excruciating. I can't remember much of what happened.

I was crying... why was I crying?

I take a slow, deep breath and then sit up. It hurts tremendously and leaves me unable to move for a bit until the pain subsides a little.

Shit... I've never felt worse in my life.  I look at Dom, seeing he hasn't moved at all. Is... is he dead? The horses haven't left us. They graze a few feet away. 

Mateo: "D... D."

My voice is incredibly hoarse. My mouth is so dry. Damn it, Mateo.

Mateo: "Dom."

I get his name out, yet he doesn't stir. I need to get to him. Slowly, I reach my hand out and grab his. He doesn't do anything, his grip limp and lifeless. I take the next few minutes to push myself closer to him painfully. I finally reach him and pull his head onto my lap. I gasp as I see his face.

His eyes are entirely white... and he holds no expression. Has... has he seriously died? Am I holding... Dom's corpse? I stare at my boyfriend. It hurts beyond words; memories of what happened flood back to me. I was too late to save him from... himself. I couldn't do it. I wasn't strong enough.

I close my eyes as I rest my hand on his heart. I rest my other hand on my heart and take a deep breath. I feel so weak. I am weaker than at any other point in my life.