V & V - Rageous Rageon Rise

I'm Finally Ready To Let Love In

Dom POV:

Holy fuck... why does my head hurt so badly? Shit... why do I feel so cold? I scrunch my face uncomfortably, taking a deep breath through my nose. Shit... what happened?

I slowly open my eyes... and see I'm in some fucking bright room. I blink before my eyes adjust... allowing me to see that I'm in some hospital room. I see that I'm hooked up to what have you; the IV in my arm is a little jarring to see.

What led me here?

I close my eyes and try to think. Shit... I feel so sore everywhere; it hurts to think. I stay quiet, not feeling like making an effort with anything, until my memories slowly bleed into my mind.

Oh yeah... that's what happened.

I flinch as my mind replays the sick sound that I heard when Mateo was struck to the floor. I remember the lifeless look in his eyes.. the realization I had made when I believed I killed him.

I remember accepting the fact that I needed to kill myself.

All of it is so... upsetting. Where is Mateo? I can't remember what happened after I passed out. I killed my other self... or at least, I'm pretty sure I did. What else could have happened that I don't remember?

Who found us outside? Was it his ranchhands? It's surprising we didn't see anyone working. Maybe they had reasons for not coming in, and perhaps that's how we were found. How long were we out there before someone sent us here?

I look around and sigh. It figures I'd have no one here with me. Not that I expected anyone to be here...

I close my eyes and sigh as I look at what appears to be my heartbeat. Staring at the green line moving in what looks like small, jagged mountains is weird. I... was so ready to give up on myself. I was so prepared... to... die.

It's an odd feeling to see that heartbeat. I'm still breathing, and I'm still alive.

Does... that mean something to me? Is that a sign of something that I'm... not seeing? Should I read into everything differently?

Is... there a reason I'm still alive?

The moment I think about it, it hits me. I know why I'm still alive. It has to be because of Mateo. HE sacrificed himself for me. He allowed himself to get harmed... in the name of love. If I give up on myself... I'm giving up on him.

I need to find him and, if he's still alive, see him.

I force myself to sit up, and the motion of everything feels incredibly difficult. The pain in my neck and head forces me to sit back. Okay, maybe I can't just get up and find him. I sigh to myself, feeling... scared.

I... really miss my boyfriend. I want to know that he's okay. I want to know that... he's still alive.

My door is opened, and a nurse enters. She looks surprised to see me awake and hurries over. She asses me before calling for a doctor. She leaves before returning with a doctor.

Doctor: "Dom Graves? I'm a huge fan of your music."

Dom: "Oh, thank you."

Doctor: "So, we found you in our care after you were found in a field with... Camila León Castañeda? Oh, wait. His name is Mateo. Sorry."

A... part of me feels angry he got Mateo's name wrong, yet I let it go.

Doctor: "So, I'm going to do a few checks. Then, I will have to ask some questions, alright? You don't have to answer them if you don't want to, but it will help me better assess the causes of your injuries and how we can treat them."