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Chapter 54 Nose to Nose and Appointments

I sat at my desk not really knowing what I was doing, I replied to a few e-mails for trailer updates that the guys were asked to do and also some in house bit's and pieces. Once all of that was done I e-mailed Hannah and asked if she was around this morning, she replied that she was. 'I will be back in a second.' I mumbled standing with whatever energy I could gather. 'Alright honey.' Smith said sympathetically, I heard one of the guys ask what was up with me as I left but it was muffled by the door. I walked down to Hannah's office, there were quite a few flashing lights indicating that people were recoding, I guess everyone needed to make more content after being away for the weekend. I walked past the common room and I heard Kim shout my name. I sighed, stopped and turned around to face her. 'Hey, look I am sorry for being in your face about Ross; it's just hard for me to see him getting on so well.' I looked at her confused, 'you're mad because he hasn't broken down because you left him?' I asked her she didn't answer right away, 'when you put it like that..' I didn't let her finish, 'there isn't any other way to put it, and you don't like the fact that you breaking up with him didn't break him.' I said, 'of course not, I loved him too you know.' I looked at her with my eyes slightly narrowed, 'when are you going to get it into your head that nothing went, is or is going on with me and Ross.' I said stepping towards her. 'Abbey.' I turned around and Smith was stood there with his arms crossed, 'cool off, go find Hannah.' He said, I looked back at Kim and walked past her and into Hannah's office.

I opened the door and closed it behind me, 'Bloody hell.' I think I made Hannah jump, 'what's up?' she asked looking at me, 'I can't do it anymore.' I told her and she stood up and walked over to me, 'can't do what sweetie?' she asked placing her hand on m shoulder, the door swung open and Smith walked in, 'what was that all about?' he asked closing the door, 'I can't do it anymore.' I said again, 'what?' Smith asked, 'what happened?' Hannah asked Smith, 'I was going to the loo and she and Kim were practically nose to nose.' He explained, 'I told you to leave what she said to you.' He said, 'what did she say?' Hannah asked, 'she is convinced that there is something between Ross and I.' I told her, 'does she know about the kiss?' Smith asked switching tone, 'Kiss?' Hannah asked, 'no I don't think so, I haven't told her that's for sure. 'What Kiss?' Hannah asked again, 'even if she did it was only the one time and Ross was not Ross.' Smith said sitting down, 'What? I go away for a week.' Hannah said. I sat down next to Smith, 'she just might regret breaking up with Ross, and it can happen even if you don't love someone anymore.' Hannah told us sitting down on her desk chair. 'You honestly just need to not talk to her if you can help it Abbey, especially if she is in one of them moods again.' Smith told me putting a hand on my leg.

We sat for a moment in silence calming down a bit since we all got a bit tense. 'You look like you're ill.' Hannah broke the silence, 'I didn't sleep very well last night.' I told her in a low mumble. 'She had a big nightmare last night; she was thrashing around and shouting. It was her uncle again.' Smith told Hannah, 'is this all linked to your anxiety?' Hannah asked me and I shrugged my shoulders. 'Lewis said you were going to go to the hospital, see if they could help.' She said and I nodded, 'it sounds like a good idea, you can't be like this, it's not fair on you. Might be good to just go and see if they are able to give you a check over and see if they can find something.' Smith reinforced Hannah's point, 'I can make an appointment for you if you like, do if for Wednesday. And we will come with you if you want.' I nodded and gave in, I never liked hospitals, been a couple of times, never ends well.

Smith and I walked back to the office, Trott stood up, 'Don't ask.' Smith said sitting at his desk and me at mine. We had to work through lunch; it took me three times as long to finish the thumbnails today and finally wrapped up by seven along with the guys who had been editing pretty much all day. I was so glad that we brought the car today; it was enough effort just walking down the corridor. We walked past Hannah's door and she stuck her head around and told me that she made the appointment for ten in the morning on Wednesday. I thanked her and we went home.

When we got in I went upstairs and laid down on the bed, I turned around and looked at the door when there was a knock on it. I was Ross which was a surprise, 'hey.' He said and I smiled at him, 'Smith told me about what happened with you and Kim. I am sorry.' He said I sat up and looked at him, 'why are you sorry, you're not the dick in this situation.' I told him, he put his hands in his pockets. 'I guess, how you feeling?' he asked and I shrugged my shoulders, 'not amazing.' I told him, he walked over and sat on the bed, 'you don't look amazing, you look slightly zombie like.' He said and I chuckled, 'thanks.' He smiled at me, 'do you think Kim knows about the whole... thing?' he asked and I shrugged my shoulders, 'no idea but if she did then it would explain a lot.' I told him picking up one of Smith's pillows and cuddling it. 'I am still surprised how Smith took the whole situation, I never thought that Kim would be worse.' Ross said crossing his legs on the bed. 'Yeah.' I shuffled and Ross looked at me suspiciously, 'you told him the truth right, like the whole truth.' I shuffled again, 'I told him we kissed once.' I told him in a mumble, 'you lied?' he asked and I shushed him, 'it was more than once, defiantly more than once. That's why he let me off fairly easily, you told him it was only once.' He said in a loud whisper, 'It only happened on one occasion, it only happened once.' I told him and he shook his head, 'we kissed three times at least, and it wasn't just me, you kissed me too. You need to tell him.' He said getting higher in pitch. 'I know, I know but I don't want you two to fall out, I need both of you right now.' I told him, 'I had another nightmare last night, a rough one. And I have to go to the hospital on Wednesday and that never ends well.' I told him, 'I am sure it will be fine, what are you going for?' he asked and I told him. 'I thought about doing that, I had some pills when I was younger but I stopped taking them when I was in Uni since you couldn't have them and drink.' I looked at him unpleased. 'Yeah yeah you don't need to lecture me on it I had an ear full at the time from my mum.' I chuckled and he did too.

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