Don't watch me go. (Minsung)

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(A/N THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR THE BIRTHDAY COMMENTS THEY MAKE MY HEART GO BOOM BOOM THERE WERE SO MANY- IM UGLY SOBBING 😭🥰)
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the next morning came quickly. and something wasn't right.

the atmosphere was dim and almost deadly, as minho woke up to be greeted with silence.

silence that was almost mocking in a way.

he opened his eyes to see jisung sitting up in bed, facing away from minho.

in the dark room he made out the featured of his back. he had his palms pressed to his face.

"jisung?" minho's voice broke through the silence- yet jisung didn't quite move. he ignored the others voice.

minho rubbed his eyes and sat up, looking at jisung. "are you in pain?" he asked.

he didn't know why other reason jisung would be up. after not hearing an answer, curiously minho moved so he was sitting right next to jisung.

"hey.." minho placed his hand on jisung's shoulder. "you okay?"

he felt jisung release a shaky breath, as he spoke in his hands. "of course im not okay.." he spoke back.

minho knew that. of course he did. but he still had to ask.

"i know.. but you will be." he tenderly smiled at the boy, who just covered his face more. "i made you ramen, it's in the microwave. i'll heat it up for you-"

minho went to stand- however jisung gripped onto his sleeve, bringing him to sit back down. "don't bother." he whispered.

"huh? but you haven't eaten anything, plus you're hurt. it'll make you feel better-" minho tried to explain but he got cut off again.

"minho i think this is going to be my last time im over here."

this sentence came out of thin air. minho paused, staring at jisung as he was able to hear his breaths.

"what?" minho was confused. "what are you talking about?"

jisung moved his hands away from his face, looking down at the wooden floor beneath his socks.

"i don't think we should be friends anymore. that's what im saying." jisung spoke, voice sounding as if underwater.

this didn't process to minho. he sat there, blinking before furrowing his eyebrows. "what are you saying?"

he stared at jisung in the dark room.

"why are you suddenly saying this?-"

"it's not suddenly." jisung spoke, voice drawing out. "i've been thinking about it.. i don't want to be around you."

then jisung's eyes finally met minho's.

and minho's heart sank.

jisung's eyes were dull. his eyes had no light in them- nothing bright. no signs of life.

his face held a look minho had only seen once from him.

the same exact look he had that night.

the night he was going to kill himself.

immediately minho began to panic. "no, no, no don't make that face."

he couldn't bare to look at his face.

but his words were like knives

his words made minho's heart sink immediately. he felt a lump form in his throat.