A Tale of Mischief and Mutants

Torn Down

—-Loki—-

It took an enormous amount of restraint not to force Gyrich's door open and demand he apologize to Sam. I knew that would simply make it worse. Upon arriving home I immediately file the necessary documents for Jen to appeal for Sam's dual citizenship. I then contact Thor about Mjölnir knowing Sam won't want to return to that wretched couple's home to retrieve it.

For now an agreement has been reached that so long as she had no contact with the X-men she can stay with me in New York until repairs are made to my house back home. It was a hard decision but Sam chose to go through with it. It may take a long time for approval with her being a mutant and all but I know Jen will push to get it through as quickly as possible.

I sit here now with Sam she's a mess. Their words had torn her down. I do my best to comfort her but I don't truly know what it's like to be completely cast out like she did. I was an infant when my birth parents left me for dead and I will admit that I was never truly cast away by Odin and Frigga, ...not like this at least.

Since Sam's conversation with her parents she's retreated back into herself. The confidence she had built seemed to break down completely by their rejection. Instead of walking by my side she practically hides behind me now when we go out. She's still herself but less confident and I don't know how to build that back up.

Her nightmares had been gradually getting better but they returned to being a nearly nightly occurrence after she was torn down by her parents. I help the best I can but I don't completely know how. She might need therapy and I have no clue how to go about getting her that kind of help. I had undergone mandatory therapy when I first joined the Avengers but in all honesty I don't think they cared all that much.

Not that I was the easiest client to deal with but they seemed to give up after only a few sessions. I had been more than happy to end our sessions when they agreed to simply sign the appropriate documents. Maybe Barnes knows someone who can help her. I know he went to therapy when he joined the Avengers and it's seemed to help him. I'll make a point to ask him about it the next time I'm at the compound.

Her confidence isn't helped by the fact that whenever we go out of the house at least one mortal quim has to say or do something to remind me of what I did in 2012. I do my best to ignore them. They scare Sam and she sees through the facade I put up. As much as I'd hate to admit it, the comments bother me and cut deeply that was the lowest point in my life and it's brought up to me constantly whenever I'm in New York.

The way I'm treated here reminds me that these people will never trust me no matter how many times I help save their world. I lost the privilege of trust and that is something I will never be able to get back. It's been tempting to simply be what they believe me to be over the years but now with Sam that temptation is gone.

I've also been thinking about my plans for revenge for her and have realized that I will need to carry it out carefully when the opportunity finally arises. I can't get myself locked away and leave someone I love unprotected, I refuse to make that same mistake twice. Whatever happens I've arrived at one conclusion, I have to try to do better not just for myself but for Sam as well.