A Tale of Mischief and Mutants

A Guilty Victim

—-Sam—-

I'm shaking, now in a full on panic attack. I hope he didn't run far. 'What if Logan can't talk him into coming home?' 'What if Loki gets scared and attacks Logan?' 'What if Logan looses his temper with him?' 'Why does he always feel so guilty?' He's always so confident with everything besides his own conscience.

'Why does he always have to be so hard on himself?!' He's a victim of horrendous things at the hand of Thanos yet he acts like he doesn't have the right to be affected by it. As if he feels because of what he's done he's unworthy of barring any physical or emotional scars from it.

I know he's hiding scars from me, though I don't know if he's making a conscious decision to or not. I know what's normal living in a dorm full of both guys and girls for so long, and Loki never taking off his shirt with me around in all the time we've been together isn't.

He may not even be aware that that's why he hasn't, it might be a subconscious decision like some of my own decisions when it comes to my scars. I just tend to cover them up, hiding them without really thinking about it. I'm sitting now crying and shaking as even Laura is doing her best to comfort me meaning she has her hand on my shoulder.

Mary's basically holding me while making a phone call. Soon Thor arrives. Logan's been gone for some time now and the longer I sit here the more intense my anxiety becomes. Thor sees me struggling and kneels down in front of me. He takes my hand.

"Sam it's alright, you know Loki he gets upset he'll come around I'm sure of it, he always does. He loves you too much not to."

I hope he's right. Thor eventually ends up on the couch with the rest of us. Everyone is situated on the couch besides Laura who switched places with Thor and is now sitting on the floor in front of me with her back leaning on the couch and Ororo who is making sure the blizzard doesn't just start back up again being it seemed to be a pretty powerful storm.

The couch is crowded but I can't help but feel comforted by my loved ones. The comfort doesn't do very much to ebb my anxiety but I guess it takes the edge off a little. I finally hear the door open after what feels like an eternity later.

I look towards the door my fear causing me to expect to see only Logan coming to tell me he can't find him. Instead I'm reminded that Logan is in fact the best there is at what he does when I see Loki standing there with him. I can tell he's been crying. I somehow find my legs steady enough to get up and practically run to him. I hug him tightly and begin weeping.

"You pretentious brat! Never do that again!!!"

He seems to be surprised by me reacting this way at first then holds me close.

"I'm sorry mortal."

That's all he needs to say. I pull away slightly to look at him.

"It's alright just don't you ever do that again!! Don't leave me, I can't do any of this without you!"

He looks as if he didn't know this. 'How could he possibly not know this?!' 'How could he possibly not know how much he means to me?!' I'm both pissed and sad by this.

"I love you, you dumbass! I don't care if you have issues, I have them too so don't act like you're not allowed to show it!"

He looks down at the floor guiltily.

"I'm sorry I love you too."

I pull him towards me kissing him I don't care that we have had an audience for this very personal discussion and moment. I only care that we had it and that it will likely have a positive impact on our future.