Tommyinnit Oneshots (With SBI)

What did I do Wrong? (Tommy Angst) (1/3)

This takes place in the real world, everyone lives separate

Note- Mentions of suicide, replacement, depressing thoughts

Tommy POV (1st)

Was I being jealous? I liked Ranboo, I really did. But he seemed to attract all the attention. It was almost like I didn't exist anymore. None of them really even talked to me anymore. Did I do something wrong?

I should have expected it. Ranboo is better than me. He's funny and is always entertaining. He doesn't annoy everyone. He's always kind, always willing to help out whenever needed.

So why did it hurt so much? What hurt the most was Tubbo. Suddenly I was the second choice. He was always streaming with Ranboo. He called Ranboo everyday. He told Ranboo everything. It was only ever about Ranboo.

I had never really thought of myself of someone who was controlling. It wasn't like Tubbo couldn't have other friends. But because of Ranboo it felt like we weren't friends anymore.

My phone rang, singing out a notification. I glanced at it and felt my eyes turn glassy. They were streaming without me... again. Phil, Techno, Wilbur, Tubbo, and now Ranboo.

Quickly I tried to wipe my eyes, but it was no use. The tears were already streaming. I felt so replaced. My eyes drifted towards the bottle. No, Wilbur would be disappointed.

Wilbur said that if I ever had those thoughts again to call him. I sighed, grabbing my phone. I scrolled down, clicking on his contact. I was only supposed to use his number in emergencies, and I decided to count this as one.

Ring, ring, ring

Ring, ring, ring

Ring-

"What do you want Tommy?"

I felt myself shrink at his words. He sounded so irritated. 

I sighed, not knowing where to begin. How do I tell him? 

"I-I" I began, stumbling over my words.

"Tommy why did you use my phone number? I told you it was only for emergencies." 

I was only bothering him, like I bother everyone. "Never mind sorry." I whispered quietly before hanging up. The tears came quicker now, mixing with sobs.

I looked at the pills again, but this time I didn't stop myself. I was a burden. That's all I would ever be. I reached for the bottle, staring at it.

What did I do wrong?

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This was terrible, but there you go. I think you guys like Tommy angst?

If you ever have thoughts like these, please tell someone. The world would never be the same without you.

-Snowy