Tommyinnit Oneshots (With SBI)

Find Something to Live For (Tommy angst)(2/2)

This contains a suicide attempt, please read with caution!

Please don't read this if it triggers you!!

Puffy POV

Something wasn't right with Tommy. I had a really bad feeling. And that feeling only increased all I got through all my appointments. Glancing down at my schedule, I realized that was my last appointment. Sighing with relief, I could finally check on Tommy.

Quickly dialing his number, I held the phone up to my ear. Please pick up, my foot tapped more impatiently with every ring. I was hoping I was just overreacting. That Tommy was just tired. But I knew better. I had seen this before.

Heavy breathing arose from the speaker, causing me to pick up my pace. Every second was precious. "Tommy?" I spoke gently, forcing my panic down.

The cries grew louder, making my heart pound. That's when it dawned on me. He was going to do it. Turning the key, the car ignited to life. Immediately I began driving, trying to be as fast as I could. I cursed, wishing for nothing more than to hold the broken boy in my arms. To tell him that it was all going to be okay. To stop him from making the biggest mistake of his life.

"Toms, I need you to breathe, okay? Can you do that for me? Just like we've practiced." I whispered.

"I-I can't do this anymore!" he exclaimed, sobbing loudly into the phone.

"I'm almost there, just stay on the phone with me." I begged, pushing the gas pedal even further. Five minutes away. Every minute felt like a lifetime. "Stay with me Tommy."

"Everyone hates me Puffy! What did I do?" his voice broke, mirroring my own heart. How could they leave him like this? Why wasn't Wilbur looking after him? Was I really the only one who kept the promise? Anger pooled in my chest, but I bottled it up. I needed to focus on Tommy. I could worry about the others later.

"I don't hate you Toms." I said cautiously, growing closer and closer. "I know everything is really hard right no, but I can help. We can get through this together."

"I don't want to be a burden!" he sobbed. "I just want to be happy. Is that too much to ask for?!"

"You deserve to be happy Toms." I put my car in park, jumping out and rushing towards the front door. "But trust me, this isn't the solution." I quickly pulled out my spare key, shoving it into the lock and opening the door.

"How would you know?"

I stopped, listening for where he was in the house. Following the sound of his heartbreaking sobs, I discovered him. The bottle was in his hand, open and ready. Slipping my phone into my pocket, I sighed, "I've been where you are."

Tommy jumped, suddenly aware of my presence. "You... came?" he whispered, his grip noticeably tightening on the bottle.

"Moments change Toms. These feelings... they won't last forever." I stayed where I was, wanting him to have the space he desired. "Let me help you. I promise you won't regret it!"

"But what if I do?" he whimpered, his eyes still locked on the pills. "What if it doesn't go away?"

"Then I've failed you." I spoke, taking one step towards him. Choosing my words carefully, I said, "Life is worth it. Think of your family who love you so much. Think of me." Pausing, I gave a small smile. "I love you so much Toms. And I'll keep my promise. I'm not going anywhere."

"That's what Wil said." he shook his head, another tear falling.

Biting my lip, I sighed, "I can't control his actions. But I can control mine. And I promise, you will never lose me."

"Never?"

"Not in a million years."

And that's when I saw it. That small spark of hope I had missed for so long. 

He finally had something to live for.

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