Quantum Entanglement

Chapter 82- Someone's Will Is Not To Be Measured By.

(Loop 24)

My eyes shoot open, my breathing ragged as I reel in what just happened. "FUCK!" I scream, my voice shaking from remembering the sight of my parent's bodies lying on the floor again. "WHY?!" I scream, throwing my guitar off my lap and onto the floor. "Every time!" I shout, a tear threatening to spill.

Forcing myself not to cry, I feel my face and mind become numb, my face turning into one of stone, stuck in a non-expressive state. "It happened again." I croak out. "The one thing I didn't want to happen happened."

Sitting still on my bed for a minute, I feel my mind finally remember everything, every loop rewinding through my mind as anger fills me. "I'm sick of this! Let me out of this fucking prison!" I shout, putting my hands to my head.

"I'm going to fucking kill you, Thatcher." I mumble, tears finally spilling out. Bending down, I pick up my guitar, placing my fingers on the neck of it and resting it on my leg. Gently strumming my guitar, I sit still, trying to decide on what to play. Finally deciding on what to play I move my hands and begin playing I hate you, don't leave me by Demi Lovato.

"I hate you, don't leave me
I feel like I can't breathe
Just hold me, don't touch me.

And I want you to love me
But I need you trust me
Stay with me, set me free.

But I can't back down, no, I can't deny
That I'm staying now 'cause I can't decide
Confused and scared, I'm terrified of you.

I admit, I'm in and out of my head
Don't listen to a single word I've said
Just hear me out before you run away
'Cause I can't take this pain.

I hate you, don't leave me
I hate you, don't leave me
'Cause I love when you kiss me
I'm in pieces, you complete me.

But I can't back down, no, I can't deny
That I'm staying now 'cause I can't decide
Confused and scared, I'm terrified of you

I admit, I'm in and out of my head
Don't listen to a single word I said
Just hear me out before you run away
'Cause I can't take this pain, no

I'm addicted to the madness
I'm a daughter of this sadness
I've been here too many times before

Been abandoned, and I'm scared now
I can't handle another fall out
I'm fragile, just washed upon a shore

They forget me, don't see me
When they love me, they leave me.

I admit, I'm in and out of my head
Don't listen to a single word I said
Just hear me out before you run away
'Cause I can't take this pain
No, I can't take this pain

I hate you, don't leave me
I hate you, please love me"

"That's a new song." My Dad speaks from the doorway.

"Jesus Christ." I gasp. "How long have you been standing there?" I ask, putting my guitar to the right side of me.

"Since you got roughly halfway." He answers. "When did you find that song? It's pretty good." He says, walking to the bed, shutting the door behind him.

"It's a song that's not even technically out yet." I respond, looking down at my hands.

"You clearly aren't my Lara." My Dad laughs.