𝐎𝐏𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐒 - 𝐄𝐃𝐃𝐈𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐎𝐍

𝐍𝐎 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐋𝐃

𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚: 𝗠𝗔𝗧𝗨𝗥𝗘 𝗟𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗨𝗔𝗚𝗘, 𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗩𝗬 𝗗𝗥𝗨𝗚 𝗨𝗦𝗘
𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝗶𝗳 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗮𝗹 𝗶𝘀 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗼𝗿 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂

𝙺𝙸𝙼𝙱𝙴𝚁𝙻𝚈 𝙲𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙸𝙳𝚈

I had never taken into consideration the possibility that my life would end so early into the beginning of it, but that was what happened when you decided to use drugs as an escape and it became the most difficult thing I ever had to do in my life.

Especially the recovery.

I didn't want help from anybody surrounding me because when it was just me and the drugs, I was a completely different person and I didn't want to scare them. I didn't want them to see how loved the little pills made me feel.

After I had told Eddie to allow me time to get better by getting worst first, we hardly spoke to each other and it was easy for me considering I was high every second of the day I could remember, but living by his side still made it more obvious that he wasn't dealing the best with it.

He had slept on the couch everytime I was home and when I was away at Steve's or Billy's or even outside all night, he would call around to check on me until he knew I was okay. It was nice to know how much I meant to the boy, but I didn't deserve him or his love, not after these past few weeks.

It had been three weeks since that night and I had missed so much of school that when I finally went back in, chaos erupted around me.

Eddie drove us to school that day looking more surprised than I had ever seen him, yet he didn't utter a single word to me.

I knew that people would be shocked by my sudden appearance and I also knew the teachers would have something to say but I was okay with that, I had my little friend with me.

Ketamine.

I stole the drugs from Eddie and I didn't feel bad at all. I should've considering it was so wrong to do something like that to him but I needed it. Without it, I don't know if I would've had the balls to show up today.

We pulled into the parking space and I practically threw myself out of the van so that I could go to the toilets, not wasting any time in saying hello to my actual friends.

"Kim!. Where are you going?!." Eddie called out to me as I jogged over to the school but I ignored him, pushing open the two sets of doors at the entrance and following the corridor down and to the right, walking into the girls restroom and locking myself into the cubicle.

The sound of footsteps travelled around me as most of the girls in here were either touching up their makeup or using the cubicles so they didn't piss themselves in class.

I pulled the bag of ket from my own bag and lay it on top of the toilet tank at the back of the toilet seat, using a rolled up dollar I carried around with me at all times and trying to time the snort perfectly so that nobody could hear me.

I finished up and made sure to look presentable, neatening my jumper and jeans out before flushing the toilet and walking out to wash my hands to make it look as if I was using the toilet.

"What were you doing?." Eddie asked from outside the bathroom, causing me to jump at the sudden sound.

"What?." I asked him and sniffled up a little bit of the ket I could feel inside the bridge of my nose. "Am I not allowed to use the toilet?." I asked him and made my way past him towards the locker I hadn't even touched in weeks.