𝐎𝐏𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐒 - 𝐄𝐃𝐃𝐈𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐎𝐍

𝐀𝐃𝐌𝐈𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒

𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚: 𝗠𝗔𝗧𝗨𝗥𝗘 𝗟𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗨𝗔𝗚𝗘, 𝗠𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦 𝗢𝗙 𝗗𝗥𝗨𝗚 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗖𝗛𝗜𝗟𝗗 𝗔𝗕𝗨𝗦𝗘, 𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗣𝗨𝗧𝗘

𝙺𝙸𝙼𝙱𝙴𝚁𝙻𝚈 𝙲𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙸𝙳𝚈

Another day another meeting. Yay.

It hadn't been long since Al had broke into Eddie's trailer, and with it only being two days ago we were both definitely still on edge. Eddie had school today and I wasn't to start back for another week, so that meant more counselling and more babysitting and even more chance of Al finding me, alone.

I knew i shouldn't have believed his words so easily and trust me, I was very gullible, but there was too many things that led to the possibility of it actually being him. For instance, Steve had promised Eddie that he wouldn't give me drugs, and he didn't, so why in the world would he have hidden his own drugs in his room knowing I was in there?. Some things weren't adding up.

Today, I was going to drive myself to the meeting and I knew Ed had some issues with it. He didn't trust that I would actually go and I understood; the last times he trusted me with them I ended up leaving high as shit so it made sense why he was weary of me going on my own, but I was ready to get clean and sober up, for good. I'd never be touching a single drug or ounce of alcohol again in my life because I wanted to make Eddie happy and I wanted to be somebody new, somebody nobody had ever met before.

I woke up at five am to Michael screaming the house down which then woke Andrew up followed by the rest of the house.

My dad was still here from Kansas city and my brother, Jonnie, in the spare guest room which had never been used before because of how small it was. I'd say it was nice to see my family almost back together again, but I'd been avoiding all of them only chatting to somebody when I was trying to calm my brothers down or feed them.

Jonnie was trying hard and I understood that it was difficult for him to see his baby sister so lifeless all the time, but maybe if he had been a better brother back then, then none of this would have happened.

My dad hugged me at every possible opportunity and it made my stomach churn because every time I felt his arms around me, I remembered where he was when my mother kicked me out, when she hit me and called me horrible names and forced me to look after her sons whilst he was off playing detective in another state. Of course, he wasn't happy to hear that I was no longer in school or part of the cheer squad but honestly, I was so glad to be rid of that. Cheer was exhausting and toxic and it only meant that I didn't have to be in close proximity to Natalia anymore.

My mum..well, Maureen was still the same old Maureen. Changed for a few days after I came out of hospital only to go right back to the miserable, abusive, alcoholic that sat on the sofa all day and did fuck all. She hadn't hit me since I had been back, and I knew that was because she was worried Jon or my dad would do something about it, which they wouldn't because my father had seen the abuse first hand and allowed it and Jon knew. He had literally told me he knew and still, he hadn't done a thing.

What an amazing family.

I trotted across the hallway to my parents room and knocked before I entered, seeing both of my brothers stood up in their cots as my mum lay asleep in her bed, out like a light because of the booze. I rolled my eyes and walked into the room, grabbing Michael in one arm first before moving around the bed to my dads side, who wasn't there, and getting Andrew.

Their cries died down to silence and I sighed with relief, glad that I was able to get them to stop with as little as just my attention. They were absolutely adorable and it pained me to say that I couldn't wait to leave them. I couldn't wait to be free of them because it meant I was free of her and that was the only important thing.