𝐎𝐏𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐒 - 𝐄𝐃𝐃𝐈𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐎𝐍

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐏𝐈𝐄𝐂𝐄

𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚: 𝗠𝗔𝗧𝗨𝗥𝗘 𝗟𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗨𝗔𝗚𝗘, 𝗠𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦 𝗢𝗙 𝗗𝗥𝗨𝗚 𝗔𝗕𝗨𝗦𝗘

𝙺𝙸𝙼𝙱𝙴𝚁𝙻𝚈 𝙲𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙸𝙳𝚈

I could admit that I was stubborn, very fucking stubborn, but admitting that never made it any easier to confess when I was wrong. I knew what I had to do, but it pained me to say it..to do it.

Robin was the easiest to come clean to. She understood me and never once made me feel as if I was a horrible person for what I had become not so long ago, for what I had done to our group. She made sure to make me feel comfortable with my apology and made it so much easier to try the same thing with Dustin.

That was not so easy.

"I'm glad you apologised and all, Kim. I just don't see me forgiving you anytime soon..it's hard to forget that image..to try and replace it with a version of you I use to know." Dustin was trying his hardest not to be harsh with his words, looking down at the ground. "I think time is needed..just some time to heal."

He had the most pure heart and it made me realise that there was nothing in this world that would ever make me feel as much guilt for my actions. I'd never regret anything more than this.

Eddie had warned me to stay away from Max as the word spread about my making of amends. She refused to even look at me if we bumped into each other. I'd caused her so much pain.

Steve was a real pain in the ass to try and apologise to because all he wanted to talk about was fucking Nancy wheeler.

What was his obsession with the girl?.

"Steve." I said blankly, staring at the boy as he rambled on about his ex.

"I know, I know." He rolled his eyes at me. "You guys don't like her, we all know."

"That has absolutely nothing to do with what I'm trying to talk to you about." I said to him.

"You're still trying to apologise?." He asked, almost in disbelief. "Kim, I've already told you that I'm not on that silly list of yours. You're my best friend and you always will, regardless what drugs you feed into your system." Steve scoffed and stood up, making his way to the kitchen.

"That's not the point-"

"No, the point is that I don't want you to apologise to me for something I started-"

"You didn't start my obsession for drugs, Steven." I said from the couch, watching the boy move around the kitchen.

"I fed into it, though. I kept the drugs in my room when I knew you was in there..alone." The guilt in his voice broke my heart because now I knew the truth and I couldn't even say anything. "So please..just..stop."

I prayed there'd be a day when I found the courage to stand up to Eddie's father and tell him that he didn't scare me and that there was nothing he could do to save himself.

After Steve was the rest of the kids who had pretty much the same reaction to Robins, making sure I was comfortable with speaking about what I had done and how I knew it had affected them. They seemed more bothered about hellfire with Eddie, which helped take the edge off of things a little more.

And lastly, Kathleen.

I hadn't quite gotten around to my apology for her because this sorry was going to be long and painful. I hadn't a clue how she dealt with my almost death because nobody had heard from her in a while. Apparently, she was always with Paige and when she wasn't, she would pretend as though most of them didn't exist. Steve seemed to think it was because she was hurt about our falling out and my drug overdose and anytime she saw them, she saw me.