Drunk Off You

Secrets

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JAZEERA POV
Mar. 17
3:17 p.m.

As I get off my high the realization of what I just did hits me, immediately I feel embarrassed and ashamed of myself.

Why me come over here?
I knew better!

I look at Tariek, he's already staring at me.
I sigh, "Baby me love you , you nuh ready fi we drop this? Me miss you enuh Zee." He admits.

I feel my body heat up as soon as he touches me again.

See this is exactly the problem!

"Tariek stop." I push him away, he stares at me with a pained expression. It makes my heart sink.

Ah bwoy...

My eyes sting with tears,
Cho! Look how me say me done with him and nah go back and did a stand pan it.

I'd been avoiding him, anywhere he was I made sure we were never alone...because I knew this is exactly what would happen.

My body is too weak to him.

And it's just been proven, because why am I in this bed naked right now?

"Jazerra..."
"Tariek you cheat pan me..."I cut him off.

He sighs running his hands over his face.
"Baby Jah know?"

I scoff at him,
"Jazz me swear pan me life me never fuck the girl, I was drunk and I made a stupid decision because I was in pain.."

I roll my eyes feeling even more hurt,
"Oh but when ever I tried to help you'd shout and curse at me or simply ignore me? But you jump fi have gyal a suck you off.."

I wanted so badly to be there for him, I took the shames and outbursts because I was trying to understand...and a this him do me? 

After everything?

After me give Tariek me virginity?
After me trust him fi so long fi no hurt me?

After he promised to never hurt me?

The tear falls against my will, my chest pangs
as my emotions double.

"Me wah go home, me shouldn't do this..."I start crying harder. "Me shouldn't trust you wid me body, swear to God you a did the last person me expect fi hurt me like this."

God see and now me feel shame right now, I'm in bed with a cheater...I allowed him to have my body, kiss  and touch me as if.. aye!

"Zee me never wah hurt you, mi swear it nuh go no further. Just give me a chance make me prove miself nuh baby? Please,you know seh me love you Jaz.." he's pleading with me but I can't even look at him.

My heart is in pieces,
I don't respond just crying silently.

I feel him wrap his arms around me, as much as I hate him right now it brings so much comfort. He places a kiss on my neck that calms me, another on my jaw then behind my ear.

"Me love you, give me a chance nuh Zee?" He whispers in my ear.

"You know seh me need you, it was a mistake. God see and know, me miss you Zee. Make me make it up? One date, you naffi forgive me but give me a chance fi try, make me show you say me change. I'm so sorry baby." He tries, the way he's speaking mixed with the way he's holding me to calm me down drives goosebumps all over my skin.