Drunk Off You

Trials

TANSANEÉ POV
📍Drax Hall,St.Ann
11:01 a.m.

Man is so lie and man is so wicked!!

I hiss my teeth and walk away completely uninterested in arguing with him anymore.

I tried to be better through therapy, I learned to calm myself before accusing, I TRIED to trust him again and a this me get?

All of a sudden, I'm overreacting.
All of a sudden, I 'didn't learn anything from therapy'
All of a sudden, Xavier! Can find time fi fix hm mouth tell me seh me a be insecure.

Shaking my head while folding up my clothes into the large telfar tote bag, I soley listen to the sound of the music coming from the echodot in here.

The both of us silent.
He steps into the bathroom as soon as I step in that direction to go put on my swimsuit.

Sighing I don't say anything, as soon as the door locks I drop my towel and get dressed.

He re enters the room as I'm securing my breasts into the top.

"That nuh set good." He tells me, I breathe.
Why him a talk to me?

I stop and look at him not even wanting to speak, without a word he moves to 'fix' it.

I quickly realize I was tricked when he pulls my breast from my top and squeezes it.

Hissing my teeth I push him back, he smiles but I don't reciprocate it.

Kill him dead me a laugh up wid him.

"You nuh take me emotions seriously enuh, Xavier I am so serious right now me need space lowe me."

"Me take you seriously but this a fuckry babes" he has the nerve to say.

I just stare at him then I nod and pass him into the bathroom.

A fuckry?
My emotions towards a girl you took out and that sent you sexually explicit things is fuckry?

Then again a the same man this wah fist me bout it already so wah me expect. I shake my head at myself.

Who yam like me??

Wiping a tear from my eyes, I sit and relieve my bladder. Cleaning up shortly after I flush then stand infront of the mirror and stare at my reflection.

Something wrong with me?
Swear sometimes me affi wonder..

Why can't I ever be the only girl?
Kash cheated on me, wonder when Xavier ago finally do it.

If him never do it already..cause why she woulda call him?? Why she woulda send him thoes pictures?? 

Am i an idiot?
Big woman thing?

Me really siddung yasso pan mini vacation wid a man wah me LIVE with, wah claim him love me...and affi deh worry bout gyal wah him lie to me seh him block a call him months later.

I shake my head and stare at my figure,
Me just a gain back me weight after months of being depressed. Why now?

As me get likkle belly? Really?