Drunk Off You

No matter what

TANSANEÉ POV
Tuesday, Dec. 28
10:14 a.m.

Feeling nothing but anxiety as I stare at his contact on my phone screen contemplating whether or not I should actually call him.

After everything that happened lastnight I had ended up just texting him then turning off my phone as I felt too embarrassed to speak to him.

Imagine, he literally saw me get cursed out and slapped by my Mother. You know how that embarrassing?

The first time you 'boyfriend' a meet you parents and that's his first impression?

I wouldn't blame him if he didn't want anything to do with me after this. He probably thinks so little of me now..

That thought makes me sulk further, my eyes still on his contact.

I place my phone face down before turning my head to the side staring at my wall while thinking.

This morning when I went downstairs I saw a plate of food covered for me, I assume that was made by mommy as her way of making amends. I wouldn't know for sure as i haven't spoken to her, nor did I eat it.

I've just been locked away in my room.

A knock on my door draws me back into reality.
"Come" I invite whoever it is in.

I see Xavier enter my room, in his hands are a bag that I don't pay too much attention to as I'm too shocked at the fact that he's actually in here.

"How?"
Mommy gone? Cause how else..

"Roshan let me in" he explains but I'm still in shock.

I nod, he rests the bag on my desk before approaching my bed. I sit up as he comes closer to me.

"You eat fra day?" He asks me, I hesitantly shake my head no seeing the disapproving expression that passes over his face.

He reaches for the bag handing a box of food to me, "Mi nae sure wah fi buy so me get wah mi see you eat already" he tells me, I thank him opening the zinger box.

"Now me wah know why you couldn't call me lastnight" he speaks laying the the edge of my bed staring up at me.

I keep my eyes focused on the fries I take my first bite, "Cause me know mi say nuh go sleep unless you call me" he continues.

"I sent a text" I say lowly,
"Saneé wah mi fi do wid, 'I'm fine, gn.'?" He recites my message to me, I sigh and stop eating feeling a lump form in my throat.

I can feel him staring at me,
"Eee?"

I barely shrug feeling like I'm going to start crying.
One smaddy nuffi have so much eye water,my subconscious remarks.

"I don't know Xavier, mi just did feel like you nae want nothing fi do wid me after wah happen" my admission barely audible.

"Tansaneé nuh tell me that, because me make it clear to you mi intentions already. Mi want you, so anything wah come wid that a just so" he says strictly, I nod blinking my eyes.

He shakes his head in my periferal,"Why you a cry b?" He asks, I shake my head.