100 Days with My Badboy Crush (Completed)

Epilogue (Part 2 of 2)

Everything's okay for the both of us. We're happy and we don't have any problem. Normally okay and were perfectly fine. So that I thought, but suddenly one day she never wake up on exactly the day I suppose to propose to her. It is exactly the perfect proposal I planned it all but we didn't expect the outcome. I felt my heart broke into pieces when I see her in that situation.

What hurts me the most? When I learned the truth that she's not with us anymore. She's not with me. She leave me again and this time hindi na siya babalik pa. Ang sakit. Promises are meant to be broken but with a reasons. Yet, I still can't believe that it is really happening in my life. Life is short and it was too short for us. The time is fast for the both of us and we didn't know we ended it now.

Isang pikit ko lang wala na siya. Pagising ko isang araw ay doon na pala magbabago ang lahat. Ang bilis naman. Bakit ganun kabilis? We're seven months in a relationship and were not yet a year pero bakit kinuha na siya agad? Karma ko na na to? Ito na ba ang parusa sa akin sa mga kasalanan ko na ginawa sa kanya noon? This is my consequences? Kung ito, fuck sobrang kaparusahan naman yata to.

I love her. I love her so much that I will do everything for her. Mahal na mahal ko siya higit pa sa buhay ko. Siya ang first love ko. Siya ang bumuo sa akin. Siya lang ang mamahalin ko sa buong buhay ko at wala ng iba. She's the only one for me. I don't want anybody else I want her, I want Mhica Javier. I really love her in all my life.

She have a crush on me and I didn't know that. Gusto niya ako at ako si gago sinaktan siya ng hindi ko namamalayan. Nasasaktan na pala siya ng wala akong alam. Lahat ng ginagawa ko ay nasasaktan na pala siya. Gago na nga manhid pa. Bakit kasi ako pa ang nagustuhan niya? Ano ba ang ginawa kong maganda sa kanya noon? Iba ang trato ko sa kanya pero gusto niya pa rin ako. I admit that it is really all my fault. She didn't deserve all of I did to her. She deserved a man who doesn't hurt her but still she chose me.

Siya ang nagpabago sa akin. Siya ang isang taong umintindi sa akin. Siya lang at wala ng iba. She taught me all the things that I need to know in life. She's my discipliner. Wala siyang ibang ginawa kundi ay para mapabuti ako. Ako ang iniisip niya kahit wala akong binibigay na atensyon sa kanya. Lahat ginagawa niya para sa akin. She give all of her best to discipline me despite I give her the cold treatment she didn't deserve.

She is my one in only desperate girl and I love her so much. I understand her now why she's doing all of desperation when it comes to me because she have a feelings on me. She cared and love me. Yet, I still hurt her. I'm a fucking useless asshole to her.

Hindi naman lahat ay ako ang masusunod. It was my fucking fault that she is suffering now. I will never be good on her. Hindi kailanman. Ako ang may kasalanan at alam na alam ko yun. Memories na lang ang naiwan. Iyon na lang ang iniwan niya. Iyon na lang ang panghahawakan ko. Alam kong malaki ang kasalanan ko sa kanya kahit na napatawad niya na ako pero hindi pa rin yun sapat sa kagaguhang ginawa ko. Fuck this fucking life of mine.

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Our friends visited me in my parents mansion dahil bukas na ako magpropropose. Today is December 24 and tommorow is the d-day. It's a surprise. I want it to be special for the both of us especially for her. MJ is not here she is in her parents house. We're having a breakfast at nandito silang apat.

"I was nervous."

"Yeah, we already know. Since were planning this proposal of yours hindi kana mapakali. Well, nakakakaba naman to'ng gagawin mo. Don't worry too much Kyle" Stephen said

"I cannot help it. It's my first time to do this."

"Wag ka nga kasing kabahan dahil pati kami nadadala sayo. Alam naman natin kung ano ang isasagot niya sayo bro" Jake said