Forever - Christian Yelich

Vitamin D.

Brooklyn~

I'm taking an actual mental health day today and just figuring out my shit instead of getting right back to it. It'll just be me today, no baby, no Christian. And oddly enough, I'm looking forward to it. I love my boys to death and wouldn't change a single thing. I desperately needed this. 

"We're about to leave. Do you need anything before I head out?"

"No, I don't think so."

"Okay, text me if you need anything. Just relax today. Get some sleep, get some vitamin D in your skin. We'll be back in a few hours."

"Are you saying I'm a little pale?" He smiles and leans down to kiss me as I laid in our bed. "I love you."

"I love you, too."

He kisses me once more before walking out of our room, leaving me in silence. I hear the door garage door shut and am finally alone, with my thought. So maybe not alone.

I probably should get up, right? It could make me a little more productive and take my mind off some things. It looks pretty nice out so maybe I'll go into the pool and take his advice about the vitamin D. 

I swing my legs off of our bed and walk over to the closet to change into a swimsuit. I slept like a baby last night, Kayden didn't wake me up. I was wrapped in Christian's arms the entire night and I've never felt safer and loved than right there, all through the night. 

I glance in the mirror and just feel the energy radiating off of me. I'm just getting like bad bitch vibes, which is what I fucking need. Go off, bitch. Go off. Christian and I even thought about flying me to Malibu for the weekend to cool off and be somewhere that baseball and work aren't a priority. But in the end, I would've missed Kayden and Christian too much, so we decided against it. Although it would've been nice, it's not what I need right now.

I make my way downstairs and find my sunglasses so I can go enjoy the very beautiful, hot, and sunny weather we are experiencing right now. I grab my water bottle and fill it so I'll have something to drink. Even though I could go for an iced coffee, I know not to since it'll make me jittery and that's not something I need. I connect my phone to the Bluetooth speakers that are around the outside of the house and move my head to the beat of the music. It's amazing what vitamin D does for you in a matter of minutes. I can just feel the sun doing wonders to my mental health. I feel like that's why my mental health is so much better in the winter now. I spend five months out of the year where it's warm to me, low 60s in the day and a little colder at night. But no snow, no frigid temperatures, no nothing that makes me want to escape like I would want to when I lived here during the winter.

I move to the least shady spot on our deck so I can get all kinds of color today. I'm not holding back and will stay out here until Christian comes back. I wish he could do this with me. Just take a mental health day and stay home and relax. It's not that the guys are playing bad or anything, it's just not where everyone expected them to be. Lots of people thought they would be better by the time All-Star break is here, which is in a couple of weeks. Unfortunately, they're not. 

I put all of those thoughts behind me and continue to layout on the reclining chair, allowing me to tan both sides of my body. It's more hot than humid and absolutely just how I like it. I pick up the book I brought down with me to hopefully get some reading in. I've been trying to incorporate that into my nightly routine. Bettering my mind and keeping me educated. Something I wouldn't have done five years ago has been one of the best things for me. I happen to look up as something white caught my eye and see multiple parasails out on Lake Michigan that glistens with the sun beating down on the beautiful blue water. It's such a beautiful day and I couldn't have gotten lucky with this weather.

I put my book down and close my eyes trying to possibly take a nap. Which probably sounds really bad since I'll most likely burn, but it'll tan over, soon. 

"Go wake up mama," I hear from behind me as I slowly wake up. Wow, I slept the entire time. My skin is probably fried, great. It's no one else's fault but my own. I look over to my left and see Christian helping Kayden over to me as he takes tiny little steps with Christian's guidance. He needs to stop growing, I don't like this. I hold my arms out and wait for them to make it over to me. "How was your day?" Christian asks as he's sits down next to me.

"Well, I've been out here since you left, so pretty good," I say adjusting how Kayden was sitting on my lap.

"You're a little red."

I scrunch my face up and can feel my skin tingling, "It'll tan over."

"This all you did?"

"Yeah, didn't want to do anything so I took your advice and got some color. I read a little, listened to some music, and obviously fell asleep. How was the game?"

"We didn't win, but it's fine. I was just trying to get back here. It was like 5-3, both teams put up a fight, but at the end of the day, the Reds were better."

"That's okay. There are more games ahead. Do you know how he was?"

"They told me he slept for an hour and a half. I guess he had a pretty good day though."

"Good."

"I stopped and got dinner since I figured you weren't going to cook tonight."

"Yeah, that was a good decision. I didn't think I'd stay out here all day, but here we are."

"Let's go inside." I nod and stand up with Kayden as Christian tries to wrap a towel around me, even though I don't really need it. "I just got our normal." I set Kayden down in his high chair and pull it over by us. "How was Sarah doing?"

"Better than I think you would expect. We would all want you both there, but she's really handling it well. I think you'd be surprised."

"I was going to text her before the game but I obviously fell asleep." He laughs and hands me my bowl of food, "Thank you."

Christian's put him down, hopefully for the night while I find some shorts to put on over my swim bottoms. I go back down into the kitchen to clean up so we can wake up to a nice, bright, clean kitchen. I wash the sink as I glanced up at Christian as he made his way back down. He wraps his arms around me, making it sort of impossible to clean. "Would you just relax for one day? Is that not possible for you?"

I turn around, "Gotta keep myself somewhat busy."

"Somewhat?"

"What? It's not completely busy."

I look up at him waiting for his response, "Somewhat is not completely, so I'll give you that," I laugh as we stand there, "Your skin's warm, must've got some good sun rays."

"It's going to be a bitch when I take a shower later."

He laughs and picks me up and sets me down on the counter, "Still got it," he chuckles and I roll my eyes.

"There's my beautiful wife."

"Here I am." He smiles and kisses me, but I'm quick to deepen the kiss. "Babe, are you sure you want to get into this."

I cover his mouth with my hand to keep him from speaking, "Christian, shut up."

"That was hot," he says after I take my hand away and laugh. He's quick to take action as I sit there on the counter and he pulls me toward the edge. "We should... probably... move this... upstairs," I say between kisses. 

"Hold onto me."

He lifts me up and starts to head to the stairs. God, please do not drop me or fall down the stairs because that'll be fun explaining. He shuts the door rather loudly and I have to restrain myself from scolding him since Kayden is sleeping. 

He sets me back down on the bed and reaches behind me to untie the top of my suit. "You sure?"

"Do I have to tell you again?"

"No," he says quickly.

"Okay, that's what I thought."