Love affair | Chacha

What do you want

~Chapter 91~
                What do you want

Chases POV:
She really feels that way? She's jealous of my girlfriend?? I don't understand?! She told me all of those horrible things before and now this?? I don't get it?

Does she like me does she hate me. I can never understand with her?

Chase: "you don't want me to have a girlfriend?"

She looked at her feet

Charli: "just forget it. I'm happy for you. I'm happy you're moving one"

That didn't sound like she is happy

Chase: "do you not want me to date her? I mean- I just thought since it's been 5 months since we've dated-"
Charli: "no. I do want you to date."

Ok what is going on.

Chase: "so you're okay with this?"
Charli: "yeah- well no. I don't understand you?? At all?! Why would say all those nice things to me than your girlfriend just shows up??"

I sighed

Chase: "because i never know what to do? I thought we were over Charli? I thought that day you kicked me out of the prison that you'd never wanna see me again. So I tried moving on. I don't know what you want me to do at this point?! Do you want to be friends with me? Do you want to be more or do you want to be none."

She confuses me.
I just wish she could communicate to me what she wants.
I'd do anything for her. Personally, I want to be more than friends.
Il always wanna be more than friends, but unfortunately she's got a say in it too and I really don't know what she wants?

Charli: "friends- well- more- no. None."

What?? Does she expect me to understand that?

Chase: "what is that supposed to mean?? You can either say you want us to be friends or maybe something more, or I can leave. But I promise you this time I'm not coming back?"

She looked up at me

I really don't wanna leave forever... but if she doesn't want to date or at least be friends, than I'm gonna leave.
I'm sick of being in the middle,
When we're not friends but we're not not friends. Or when we're "friends" but there's obviously something still there.

Charli: "I did it for you, you know..."

Did what?

Charli: "I said all those horrible things because I didn't wanna burden you? I knew you'd come visit me every day and I didn't want that for you... I wanted you to move on..."

Oh...
She did it for me?
But I wanted to visit her? It wasn't a burden in any way.

Charli: "my answer is still the same. I want you to move on even though I might want to be more than friends, I don't want that for you"

What? We both wanna be more than friends?? Why can't we do that?? What's in our way??

Chase: "but-"
Charli: "I want what's best for you. And what's best is that we never see each other again after this."

That's not what's best for me.

Chase: "no?? That's not how it works?! You can't just decided you never wanna see me again. Because I wanna see you and I'm not leaving?!"

I refuse to leave?! We both wanna date and I'm not leaving.

Charli: "I'm doing this for you!"
Chase: "no you aren't Charli?? Stop making that excuse?! You aren't doing this for me? You're doing this for you. Why? Because you're scared. You're scared we are gonna break up again and you're gonna get hurt again"

She said nothing

I knew it.
I don't know why she's scared though?
I've learned from my mistakes. I paid the consequences. Id never do anything to purposely hurt her.

Chase: "but I'm not gonna hurt you again? I promise. I wouldn't do that?"
Charli: "you have a girlfrien-"

She keeps making excuses for us not to be together? Does she really think I'd pick Jenny over her. She knows Il leave anyone for her.

Chase: "never stoped you before"

She rolled her eyes

Charli: "I've changed okay? I don't wanna be your affair"

Affair??
She thinks I'm gonna be with her and Jenny at the same time??

Chase: "Il break up with Jenny, I just need you to tell me that's what you want"

I walked up to her and put my hands on her face.

Chase: "just say it"

She looked at me than took my hands off her face

Charli: "just stop, I can't do this. I'm not gonna do this to you?"

She's saying this Like it's a bad thing?
I wanna be with her

Chase: "do what."
Charli: "you gave up everything for me and when we broke up you lost all you had left, we know how this ends? We've watched this movie? 3 times?! Can't you see history is repeating itself??"

...

Chase: "so?? We can try again"
Charli: "we have?? At the start of this we were both married, we both were going on to have a normal life. Everything's different now. Our lives have changed"

In a good way.

Chase: "yeah my life has changed?? In a good way? At the beginning of this I was unhappy, I was miserable until you came back into my life. You made me realized that I wasn't happy? You made me realize I was never really in love with Blair because I fell in love with you and I knew that was love. I never felt for anyone the way I feel about you."

Can't she understand that she's not burdening me? She makes me happy.

Charli: "I'm sorry you ever met me."

Seriously? That's all she has to say?? I literally just told her all the reason I'm happy I met her?

Chase: "I'm not? Why are you doing this?? Why do you keep making excuses?! Why can't we just be together??"

She sighed than looked at the ground
She mumbled something

Chase: "what?"
Charli: "because I don't trust you, okay??"

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