~Chapter 139~
Who have I become
Charlis POV:
Who have I become... I used to be a decent person... I used to be mean but In a nice way, I used to be out going and Il admit sometimes even thoughtful. I'm nothing now. I'm a straight up bitch.
The love of my life wants to marry me and I'm still dating his cousin? The only person he trusts other than me.
What has happened to me.
I was just about to cheat on Mason with his cousin who I'm also cheating on.
Yeah. Il admit it. I'm cheating on Chase. Even though we aren't technically together it still counts as cheating because I'm betraying his trust. I'm ruining our relationship for someone else. I'm gonna stop making excuses for myself and I'm gonna own up to it, I'm a bad person. I make impulsive choices and I hurt the people I love and that's why nobody loves me.
That's why I don't have friends, that's why I can never be in a fully healthy relationship and that's why my family abandoned me
Charli: "it was a bad idea anyways..."
Im a selfish and impulsive person.
I do things without thinking. I ruin things for myself because I don't deserve happiness. I don't deserve to have people who love me because I always hurt them.
Chase: "yeah..."
Charli: "anyways, I think I should start planning for this party"
He nodded
Charli: "take a seat"
He sat across from me
Chase: "what can I do for you boss?"
Charli: "please call everyone on this list and ask them to come to the party"
I wrote down a bunch of names
Chase: "charli- what are you doing? Do you really feel like being killed tonight?"
If I wanna change, I have to start by making things right.
I gave him the list
Blaire
Jenny
Patrica
Samuel
Willam
Tina
Ronald
Tee-J
Elenor
Grason
Felix
Barner
Trish
Gwen
Amara
Jim
Jason
Yuni
Gabby
Ellie
Quinn
Willam
Eric
Rick
Tim
Charli: "these are all the people who hate me because of something I did. You will recognize some of them"
There are a lot more people who hate me but I don't have their phone numbers
Chase: "why do all these people hate you"
Charli: "different reasons, the most for either taking their boyfriends or ruining their lives"
He raised his eye brows
Chase: "how have you ruined someone's life?"
Charli: "uh- well- for example, Patrica and her kids. Yes I killed Alexander and ruined their lives, do I care? No. But will I apologize? Yes because it's a start to a new beginning for me"
Cough cough, also slept with a teacher in high school and got him arrested for sexual activity with a minor because he wouldn't change my B to an A
I'm gonna change, I have to do this for myself.
Chase: "oh, well I'm proud of you"
Charli: "thank you"
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Love affair | Chacha
FanfictionCharli is 25 and hates her life but doesn't want to admit it, she's unhappily married with step kids who she hates. She's unfaithful to her husband and she doesn't feel bad about it. She works in a job that she also hates. She's on the verge of sui...
