Love affair | Chacha

Burden

  ~Chapter 45~
Burden

~Flashback~
9 years ago

Charlis POV:
Chase and I have been together for a few months now.
Things have moved very fast ever since we first met and we are already planning a future together.
He is the best boyfriend anyone could ask for, I don't see why anyone wouldn't want him. I will definitely not get anyone better ever so might as well plan a future with him.

I looked at him beside me on his phone

Chase: "could I use your bathroom?"
Charli: "yeah of course"
Chase: "thanks"

He got up and went over to the bathroom.

I couldn't help to notice he left his phone on.

Hm.
I'm not gonna look through it.

Well it's already on? I'm aloud to look at it.

I glanced over at the messages on his phone

Mom❤️

Mom: "Chase please come home now. You're father and I really miss you 💕"
Seen 1 month ago

Mom: "chase, I don't know if you're seeing these but please come back <3"
Seen 3 weeks ago

Mom: "we are very worried about you, please text us back"
Seen 2 weeks ago

Mom: "we need to know if you are okay. Please text us back. We love you chase"

Chase: "hey mom, I'm okay. Im just at Charlis, im taking care of her. Her living situation isn't great. She feels more comfortable when I'm here with her, I'm sorry I haven't been home in awhile. Tell dad and everyone I love them"

He hasn't seen his parents in a month??
Because of me?? I thought he was staying here because we wanted to... I guess he just wants to make sure I don't get hurt... I didn't know he didn't actually want to stay with me? I didn't think he felt forced to stay?

I'm a burden

He came out of the washroom

Charli: "hey..."
Chase: "hey?"
Charli: "you know you can go home any time you want right?"

He looked confused

Chase: "do you not want me here?"
Charli: "no of course I do, I just think you might miss your family"

He sighed

Chase: "of course I miss my family, but I wanna be here for you"
Charli: "here for me? Or here so my parents don't hurt me"
Chase: "both"

He smiled

At school the next day chase was with me at lunch.
A bunch of the boys from the lacrosse team came over
His friends I think

Warren: "hey Chase, wanna come play lacrosse?"
Chase: "oh no thanks I'm okay"
Rudy: "c'mon man, we miss you on the team"

Wait? He's not on the team anymore??
Why?? Did they kick him off or something??

Chase: "thanks for asking, but I'm good."
Warren: "we all used to be so close? What happened?"
Chase: "we fell apart I guess, it happens to everyone"

I never actually realized he didn't hang out with his friends anymore

They walked away

Charli: "you quit the team?"
Chase: "yeah"

Why would he do that? I thought he wanted a scholarship

Charli: "why?"
Chase: "wanted to spend more time with you"

Am I really only starting to notice that he put his life on hold so he could be with me? He's growing apart from his family, friends and he quit all his extra circulars so he could hang out with me.

I'm holding him back aren't I?

I continued eating my lunch as I thought of all the ways I was burdening him.

We arrived back at my house later that day.

Charli: "can we talk?"
Chase: "yes?"

I took a breath

Charli: "I think... we should break up..."

His smile turned into a Frown quickly

I thought about it a lot and it makes sense. It's best for him. I'm a huge burden and I think he might love me too much, which I get, I'm his first love, the girl who took his virginity, his first girlfriend, pretty much his first everything.

I really did believe that we'd be together forever... but sometimes things don't work out the way guy want them too

Chase: "y-you what?"
Charli: "I think we should see other people"

I held back my tears which chase clearly didn't do

Chase: "w-why?"
Charli: "we- we just aren't good for eachother..."

I don't want to tell him why... he's gonna disagree

Chase: "did I- I do something?"
Charli: "no you didn't do anything..."
Chase: "do you not love me?"

I sighed

Charli: "I'm not doing this because I don't love you, I'm doing this because I do"

I gotta let him go.

Chase: "but- but- who's gonna make sure your parents don't hurt you?"
Charli: "I am"

He shed more tears

Chase: "please don't leave me Ch-charli you're all I have"
Charli: "we can still be friends..."

Although cutting him out of my life completely would be better for him... I do feel bad that I'm doing this... and he'd probably appreciate if we still hung out together

Through the next few weeks we were great friends, he started hanging out more with his old friends and he saw his family a lot more. I started being more distant so I'd be completely out of his life. It's better for him and eventually we drifted apart.

I started dating dating other people, and ended up breaking up with them a week later because they weren't Chase.

Every time I saw him in the hallway we'd make eye contact for a second and quickly look away and continue on with our day. 

The next year he stopped showing up at school. He never got to graduate. I never saw him again.

~End of Flashback~

I don't understand... why would he do this to me? He picked her over me?
I don't get it...-

Actually... maybe I do know why... awhile ago he asked me "if I break up with blaire, will you break up with Alexander"
It was something like that.
And me being me, I wanted to money over him and now I suffer the consequences. This never would have happened if had just picked him.

A/n
So this chapter was mostly a flashback of them breaking up the first time. As you can see history is repeating its self almost exactly

Anyways, thank you for reading this chapter hehe. Also thanks for 23k reads!! And surprisingly I'm still #1 in chacha, so thank you!

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