The Odd Doctor Out | A Drama | S. 5

770 🃏 Heartbreak Hurts

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* A Couple Of Days Ago*

'Jeonghan...'

'Don't call me that...'

'What would you like for me to call you?'

'Hana...'

'Okay... Han-ah...'

A lot of time had passed since that night, but it still didn't hurt any less.

Five days Hana had spent as Felix's boyfriend, and those had been five of the most exhilarating days of her life. They had given her a taste of what it felt like to live like everyone else around her, and they had given her the chance to experience the sweetness of first romance.

They had been the most beautiful five days of her life.

But she quite thought that they had also been five of the most painful.

Being with Felix, as his boyfriend, had been perhaps the most agonising lesson of her life: that she was not destined for that kind of happiness, and could not have it, no matter how badly she wished for it.

Turning a blind eye to the truth was all well and good, but she hadn't even been able to last seven days living that lie. Of course, it felt amazing every time Felix had held her hand or kissed her cheek. It had felt wonderful to sit in his arms, and simply be with him. It had felt heartwarming when she gazed upon his sweet texts goodnight, and even better when she fell asleep in his embrace.

But those were mere superficial things, compared to the demons buried beneath the surface.

How could she have been so stupid, to have thought for a second, that she could have that?

Separation from Felix had given her clarity, and with it, came a very abrupt life lesson that made her feel as though she had matured ten years in one go.

What next?

She'd had her first kiss and the first time she'd fallen asleep in a boy's bed, but where was she to go from there?

What was she supposed to do when it came time, and Felix wanted more than that—when she wanted more than that? Sex was a thing people did, but not something she could have, but even if not sex, then simply changing in front of him...

Her entire relationship with him, starting years ago when they'd met at uni, was built on a lie.

She would never be able to take her top off while he was around, without locking doors, which although the prospect had once upon a time felt too spicy to think about, after growing up, it now felt like only a natural progression. Even if not to go that far, then what about simply sleeping in the same bed as him, as she had done once before? Was that to mean that she would have to live her entire life in her corset of bandages, wrapped extra tightly around her body at night in fear they would come loose in her sleep, just so she could be beside him at night?