Origins oneshots!!! (Spare me)

Summertime sadness

(Instead of a meme i decided to draw the cover so... idk if I'll do this again cuz i prefer the memes but feel free to screenshot the pic idrc<3 + more lana references)

(Text conversation)

"Arti?" -Shino
"Yes Shino?<33" -Arti
"Can you cime fo my roum plesse" -Shino
*Message deleted* -Shino
"Nrverminf" -Shino
"Om soorry" -Shino
"Hey cutie its ok, take your time💗" -Arti
"Jst leeve it sorrry" -Shino
"Irs ok it dorsnt matter" -Shino

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Shino choked on his own shaky breath, throwing his phone to the side in frustration as he let out a sob.
He had got out the shower almost 2 hours ago now yet he couldn't be bothered to do anything so pulled his boxers on and a white tank top over his head and just laid in bed.

It was a week into summer break and Shino hadn't hung out with anyone. He hadn't left the house, the only times he'd spoken to people were on group chats and when Arti and RikKu would check on him or he rare chances he was spotted out his room

He hated summer, he hated how alone and pathetic it made him feel. The hot sweat that would fall down his neck because of the sun would irritate him and sometimes overwhelm him.

He hated days like these, were he just felt alone, honestly useless and just unworthy of anything. He felt so down, nothing had caused or triggered it, he was just alone with his thoughts for too long

Often Shino's thoughts could eat him alive, he was scared of himself on these days. Often times the worst of his self-destructiveness is only triggered by his own doing, usually thoughts like today would lead to him sitting on the bathroom floor with bloody clothes and bloody skin.

Yet he felt too exhausted to move or do anything. Just lay in his bed while soft tears fell into his pillow as he stared at his wall or scrolled through his phone

Maybe thats why he messaged Artemis. Just the uncertainty of not having serious intrusive urges while feeling so low was different and startling, he didn't know what he would do to himself once the numbness faded.

But once he sent the messages he felt even more pathetic. He was upset about staying in all week yet refused to hang out with people when they asked because he said he was too tired, he felt unloved by everyone but that was because he refused to let anyone love him

It was all his fault at the end of the day, so why is he now crying out to Arti to comfort him like a fucking baby when he's doing this to himself.

He buried his face deeper into his pillow and groaned in frustration. 'He'll leave next' the thoughts in his head told him. He didn't fight them, fighting away and retaliating against his own negativity is what was making him so exhausted, so he just let them flood over him and drown and suffocate in hid own sobs.

Artemis was already worried about Shino for the past few days, they had talked about the things they wanted to do over summer during easter and now Shino was refusing to do anything, Arti convinced himself he was just relaxing for a week to regain energy so he could do stuff after instead of draining himself

But after the texts Shino sent him his worries were clearly reasonable, especially as it was 5pm and Shino hadn't been seen all day. So Arti quickly grabbed Shino a drink then made his way to Shinos room anxiously

Shino jumped when a knock at his door echoed through his room, he quickly pulled himself to his knees and rubbed away the tears that poured down his cheeks. He choked out a weak "Arti?" As the door clicked open and Arti poked his head around his door

"Shino?.. a-are you ok?" Arti asked weakly, pushing a strand of his messy split dyed hair away from his face. Shino couldn't manage a reply as his throat closed up, he nodded quickly and hicced down a sob, his hic making his upset apparent.