Origins oneshots!!! (Spare me)

Please don't leave me Shino. (MHO)

(Before you worry, no. Shino and Arti don't break up. Its worse💗)
(TW: this chapter revolves around sensitive subjects such as self harm and suicide. This contains a descriptive suicide attempt, please if you are triggered by this subject do not read this chapter. If you need any help, please visit https://www.helpguide.org/find-help.htm and please look after yourself.)

Two days had passed since the villain attack, it was a Thursday afternoon. Kiyo had gone on a walk to clear his mind, his thoughts still caught up on the L.O.V.E. One sickening thought just couldn't leave his mind. He tried to walk it off

Kiyo stumbled across a familiar face, his orange hair with the blonde streak and his navy jacket, yellow shirt and denim pants. "Shino!" Kiyo said surprised, Shino turned to face Kol. They stud opposite to each other just by an alley. The streets were unusually empty and there was an odd eerily feel to the atmosphere

-Kiyo's POV-

"You alright Kiyo?" Shino asked as i stud to face him. I shrugged, avoiding his gaze. He studied for a moment "what's on your mind?" He asked with a calm manner, i sighed. I guess we'd have to have this conversation at some point "L.O.V.E" i replied bluntly, his eyes seemed to widen slightly. He clearly hadn't talked about it for a while. "I think about them a lot too Kiyo, it's alright." He sighed, resting his back on the wall while crossing his arms

"I've been thinking about Kol." I continued, he nodded "It was rough, on all of us. I hate him for what he did but he didn't deserve to y'know.. die. I mean he was almost my brother." Shino consoled me as i nodded

"Sometimes i blame myself, for the direction they went in." Shino blurted out, I looked at him numbly. He blamed himself? He left, he got out. How was whatever happened his fault if he wasn't there "You did what you had to do Shino. And you did the right thing" i replied but he didn't seem convinced "i don't know, I should've talked to Kol more. I should've been there for him" Shino continued, i stopped him however "You can't blame yourself for the direction they went in, Kol's death was his own fault, and they had already went in the wrong direction before you could do anything"

"Thank's Kiyo, i know you're trying." He responded, i could tell Shino was unconvinced but wanted to change the topic. I wasn't the best with my words so I didn't immediately think i could completely change him mind anyway. "It just doesn't seem like Kol" i sighed as he looked at me confused

For Kol to plan the entire thing, expect Shino to show up then be blown up by his own bombs. I knew the guy was scary suicidal. But the entire thing just sat wrong with me, how could Shino survive but Kol not when he planned the entire situation?

"Kol wouldn't go down so easily Shino.." i continued as he glared at me "what are you saying Kiyo?" His voice was more bitter. "I'm not saying he's alive, i'm just saying the entire situation seems wrong." I reassured him. I noticed the conversation had become tense and Shino became defensive, fuck I shouldn't have mentioned Kol.

"Kiyo you weren't there, i saw the bomb go off, i could've died! I can assure you, Kol's dead." His breath hitched when he said that, i looked at him and almost laughed "you still care about him?" I asked him, the question came off more rude then i had liked it to. "I.. obviously i cared. He was my best fucking friend and he tried to kill the both of us?" Shino replied defensively, clearly on edge and upset about the subject.

"All i'm saying is Kol's smarter then that." I replied, he stud up straighter and rubbed his face "i think This conversation's over now." He said dryly and walked off "I-" i began but he continued to walk off. I just sighed, i guess Kol was still a sensitive subject huh.

-Shino's POV-

I arrived back at the dorm and went straight to my room, fortunately RikKu and Artemis seemed to just be minding their own business. I entered my room and slumped back on the door as i hicced, burning tears fell from my eyes as my hands trembled. Fuck, fuck i really can't do this shit anymore. I tried to calm my shaky breaths but every gasp i took hurt and stung my lungs