Old Friend Book 3

Chapter #104

Chapter #104
Sam’s POV
I can’t believe my daughter is dating Nicky the kid from my days as a Marine. I can’t sleep because of the memories. It's not anyone’s fault that they came back so violently. I think I’ll go record one of my songs that is more on the mental health side of my music. I gently slip out of Scarlett’s grip and grab my phone and head to the studio. I think I’ll do two songs. I’m going to start with ‘I Miss The Days’ then I’ll do ‘Strong For Somebody Else’. I pull up the music for ‘I Miss The Days’ and make sure everything is right and after about thirty minutes of tinkering with it I go to the mic and put my laptop on the stand right next to me and press play then I just close my eyes and get in the zone and begin to sing.

Scarlett’s POV
I wake up to the sound of the bedroom door opening and closing. I see Sam’s spot empty. She must be going to the studio. I get out of bed and follow her out and when she records at night she never closes the door to the studio fully just in case someone needs her or something happens and she can hear us call for her. I just sit on the steps and listen as she starts the music and starts to sing. I recognize the music and I know some of the lyrics
“Mmh, mmh”
“Mmh, mmh”
“I miss the days when”
“I had a smile on my face and”
“Wasn't so caught up in all of the small things”
“Wasn't so adamant that I could handle everything alone”
“And wasn't so cautious and always exhausted”
“And actually listen to things that my heart said (heart said)”
“Ridin' my bike, just ridin' my bike”
“Not overthinkin' my life”
“Not always wonderin' if I'm a likable person”
“Or someone that nobody likes”
“Not always stressin' 'bout money or losin' my job”
“Or scared I ain't makin' a flight”
“Not always goin' to bed every night”
“With this knot in my stomach that never unwinds”
“What happened to me? Yeah, what happened to me?”
“When did I start to believe I wasn't worth it”
“Then question my purpose to breathe?”
“Wonderin' who I should be”
“Happiness out of my reach”
“Scared to get back on my feet”
“Need to get rid of what's detrimental, but it's hard to let go”
“When the thing that hurts you help you get to your dreams”
“See, I miss the days when I wasn't so faded”
“Love wasn't always invasive, I could embrace it”
“Just innocent, waitin', not always livin' in anguish”
“When did I break and become overtaken?”
“What was the moment I caved and”
“Gave away all of my faith and made a replacement?”
“I miss the days when, I miss the days when”
“I miss the smiles we had when we were young (oh)”
“I miss the memories of feeling love (oh)”
“I miss us runnin' underneath the sun (oh)”
“Staring out the window when the rain would come (oh)”
“I miss the smiles we had when we were kids, yeah (oh)”
“I feel like life was so much simpler then, yeah (oh)”
“When we had joy and we were innocent (oh)”
“I'd give it all to feel that way again, way again”
“Give me my mind back, yeah”
“Give me my mind back”
“The one that told me I was worth somethin' when I fall flat”
“Yeah, fall flat”
“The one that told me I was worth somethin' when I'm off track”
“Back when my imagination wasn't in a cage and it was free to run fast”
“Yeah, give me my mind back”
“Yeah, give me my, give me my mind back”
“Before it was hijacked and wasn't described as”
“A place of limitation, always indicating I can't”
“Handle everything from my past”
“Handed anything it dissects 'til I'm depressed”
“I know I'm blessed, but I'm cursed too”
“Take me back when I was happy, but I wasn't actin'”
“Vulnerable but didn't see it like some kind of weakness”
“Or a thing that's unattractive”
“Had emotion, but I learned to mask it”
“Didn't know what I was runnin' after”
“Didn't know the older I would grow”
“The more I'd lose control and take in all the baggage”
“It's really sad when everything you thought was stable crashes”
“Everything you thought would take the sadness”
“Really only made it deeper, got me off the deep end askin'”
“Will we ever feel like we imagine?”
“Will we ever feel like we adapted?”
“Will we ever feel like we did back then?”
“Just take me back when, just take me back when”
“I miss the smiles we had when we were young (oh)”
“I miss the memories of feeling love (oh)”
“I miss us runnin' underneath the sun (oh)”
“Staring out the window when the rain would come (oh)”
“I miss the smiles we had when we were kids, yeah (oh)”
“I feel like life was so much simpler then, yeah (oh)”
“When we had joy and we were innocent (oh)”
“I'd give it all to feel that way again, way again”
“Oh-oh-oh (oh)”
“Oh-oh-oh (way again)”
“Oh-oh-oh (mmh)”
“Oh-oh-oh (way again, way again)”
“Yeah, oh-oh-oh (oh) (had when we were kids)”
“Oh-oh-oh (oh) (so much simpler then)”
“Oh-oh-oh (oh) (and we were innocent)”
“Oh-oh-oh (oh), yeah, ay”
“I miss the smiles we used to have when we were young (oh)”
“I miss the memories of feeling love (oh)”
“I miss us runnin' underneath the sun (oh)”
“Staring out the window when the rain would come (oh)”
“I miss the smiles we had when we were kids, yeah (oh)”
“I feel like life was so much simpler then, yeah (oh)”
“When we had joy and we were innocent (oh)”
“I'd give it all to feel that way again, way again (oh)”
“Oh-oh-oh (oh)”
“Oh-oh-oh”
“Oh-oh-oh”
“Oh-oh-oh”
“Mmh, mmh”
“Mmh, mmh”

She finishes the song but I stay where I am since I know she needs this. “Ok and now ‘Strong For Somebody Else’ three two one.” She says before the music plays and she starts to sing again.
“I've played out the scene so much in my head”
“I have to wake up but I'd rather be dead”
“Haunted by thoughts of the ones I love most”
“I picture them living alone with my ghost”
“Kill the pain and kill the family”
“Choke the dark down, just be happy”
“Talk myself off of this ledge I know all too well”
“My personal hell, I'll bury it, bury it”
“Weight of the world, I'll carry it, carry it”
“Pile it all on, I've gotta be strong”
“For somebody!, for somebody!”
“Put my pain in a pill, I'll swallow it, swallow it”
“Too numb to feel, I'm hollow, I'm hollow”
“I have to hold on, I've gotta be strong”
“For somebody!, for somebody!”
“Somebody else”
“This voice in my head, it wants me to choose”
“Die selfish or live with my head in a noose”
“Does it ever get better, is this worth the fight?”
“Everyone has a breaking point, guess we'll find mine”
“Kill the body, not the memory”
“Wouldn't blame 'em, they'd resent me”
“Kind of scares me what it takes to just save myself”
“My personal hell, I'll bury it, bury it”
“Weight of the world, I'll carry it, carry it”
“Pile it all on, I've gotta be strong”
“For somebody!, for somebody!”
“Put my pain in a pill, I'll swallow it, swallow it”
“Too numb to feel, I'm hollow, I'm hollow”
“I have to hold on, I've gotta be strong”
“For somebody!, for somebody!”
“Somebody else”
“Somebody else”
“My personal hell, I'll bury it, bury it”
“Weight of the world, I'll carry it, carry it”
“Pile it all on, I've gotta be strong”
“For somebody!, for somebody!”
“Put my pain in a pill, I'll swallow it, swallow it”
“Too numb to feel, I'm hollow, I'm hollow”
“I have to hold on, I've gotta be strong”
“For somebody!, for somebody!”
“Somebody else”
“For somebody!, for somebody!”
“Somebody else”
“For somebody!, for somebody!”
“Somebody else”

I don’t remember that one. “Hey Babe.” I say softly so I don’t startle her. “Hey, what did you think of the songs? I saw your reflection on the window in the soundbooth.” She says taking her headset off and turning to me. “You knew I was here the whole time huh?” I ask. “Yeah but I like it when you listen to my music.” She says. “I liked them. I was surprised by the second one though.” I tell her. “Yeah. I got the inspiration from one of the letters I got from a fan.” She tells me. “Well it’s beautiful.” I say. “Thanks.” She says giving me a peck on the lips. “Do you think you could get some sleep now that you’ve done some music?” I ask. “Yeah I think I can. What time is our meeting with the director of Sing 2?” She asks. “It’s at three.” I tell her as we make our way upstairs, her hand holding mine. “You know I never thought I’d see Nicky again. I am glad Sarah has her. Nicky is a good kid with a kind heart. Since I was the medic I was also assigned to give basic medical care to the villagers. Nicky was always there and eager to help even though she was only five at the time.” Sam tells me. “The twins are five.” I say. “Yeah they are. What about it?” She asks, confused. “She was the same age as two of our kids when you saved her. I just never thought about it before. I was just angry with you for getting hurt and dying with me in your arms. I mean they were able to bring you back. But now I can’t help but picture it being Emma or Wyatt that you shield with your body.” I tell her. “Hey, don't think like that. I know it’s easy to spiral. But the kids are safe, you are safe, I'm safe. We are all ok.” Sam says with her arms wrapped around me as we lay in bed. “You are right I just let my mind run away from me.” I tell her. “That’s ok it happens to everyone.” She says softly. “Let’s get some sleep.” She says with a yawn and we both quickly fall asleep.

A/N
This chapter’s question is would you rather be a famous director or actor? I would rather be an actor that also directs. So a little bit of both but mainly an actor. Anygays see you in the next one.