"Options... I've ran out of Options..." (Book 3)

Chapter 112 - "Too Much Thinking..."

Chapter 112 - "Too Much Thinking..."

Clara's PoV

'Where are you going?' I asked Richard catching him in the hallway the following evening before he could make his escape.

Thursday night was the night of the week that they come to ours for dinner and since Lilly had been having quite a rough time of it lately I figured that it was a chance to give her a break.

She wasn't being herself anyway so I knew this wouldn't have helped.

I knew where Richard was going I'd just prefer it if he didn't go.

'Work' Richard mumbled.

'Rich. Your Fucking exhausted. You can't keep doing this' I said with some serious concern.

After last night I couldn't be dealing with this. I couldn't keep lying to lilly.

'Clara you don't get it. I have to go to work. It might be at a scuzzy bar in a dodgy part of town but it could be a lot worse' he grumbled as the lounge door opened.

I didn't know lilly had followed me.

It was even less likely that she would follow me and listen in rather than anything else.

'You know what he's up too? Are you sleeping with him? Are you part of this game too?' Lilly snapped as I told her to shut up not wanting to let the kids hear or get the wrong idea.

She totally had this all wrong.

'Cheez lil. Why would you even jump to that conclusion?' I scoffed.

'Because you two have been acting very odd lately and you both have a history together so it wouldn't shock me if you two were up to something even though he's my Fucking husband'

'Hey? What the hells going on in here that requires swearing?' John snapped.

'Ask then too. They are the ones keeping secrets'

'We are definitely bot sleeping together' I snapped back as the door was shut and Richard looked at me.

Thankfully he decided it was time to just finally come clean instead of running away.

- - -

'You knew? You knew what he was up to all along and you didn't tell me?' Lilly yelled storming into the room and slamming the lounge door.

'It's only bar work Lil. It's not like he's a stripper or anything' I scoffed trying to make her feel a little bit better but she was right.

I knew the whole time and I decided to keep that too myself.

'Your supposed to be my best friend' Lilly snapped.

'Oh come on don't be ridiculous. You are my best friend' I said rolling my eyes.

'And you? You Fucking hated Clara from the minute she turned back up in John's life and now all of a sudden your buddy buddy with her and telling her personal secrets. Keep an eye out John. It wouldn't surprise me if they were bloody sleeping together'

She kept saying that and I think she genuinely meant it.

It was amazing how much she didn't trust Richard but what was more amazing was how she didn't trust me.

'Whoa? That's a bit far lil. I'm doing this fricken extra work for you. Your so desperate for another kid. I work all bloody day with John 8-6 - 6 days a week - practically and then I go and work from 8 till 2am. I only get like four hours sleep and that's all for you' Richard snapped.

'How the hell did she know about it then?' Lilly growled.

'The leaving party' we said in sync.

- - -

'What's wrong?' John asked as I curled up in bed and smiled at John.

'I'm sorry. I'm being a lummox. I'm just laying here doing nothing' I grumbled.

'No it's not the laying that's the problem. I'm coming to bed anyway. It's just how sad you look' he mumbled.

'Sorry. It's just this whole lilly thing. I can't stand the idea of loosing my baby again. I can't do it. What if it happens to us nex--?'

'Don't even say that' he scoffed dropping on the bed in his underwear and leaning over me. 'I won't let anything happen to this baby and that's a promise' he said with a small kiss.

'That's not a promise you can make though is it john?' I said, kissing back but not really into it?' I scoffed.

'Shush' John smirked as he pressed he index finger to my lips and looked me in the eye. 'I did not bring you on a romantic Valentine's weekend for you to bring the whole thing down. Now come on. Stop thinking about things so negatively'

'We have to be real here jo--' I said as his mouth was on my lips his time to shut me up - but it didn't work. I'm not that easy to distract. 'Sex is not the answer here john' I growled pushing him off me and got off the bed.

'Says you. Your the one who has been on a crazy hormone rage since you even got pregnant'

'I'm not in the mood' I mumbled. 'Any way how can you want too? I've been lying to you for weeks'

'I don't really care. It's got nothing to do with me. If you and Richard want to share and have secrets that's your problem. I just have to trust that you don't do anything stupid with the daughter that the pair of you have together' he shrugged. 'It's Lilly that's angry and on that I don't blame her' he said as he gave up on me and climbed under the covers next to me.

'Sorry' I hiked curling up next to him.

'It will all work itself out. Lilly might hate you now but she never hates you for long. Your too likeable' he promised.