"Options... I've ran out of Options..." (Book 3)

Chapter 99 - "Light of Day...?"

Chapter 99 - "Light of Day...?"

Clara's PoV

'I sense you've been awake a while?' I asked rolling over and seeing John lying in the bed still on his phone.

He hadn't really bothered to untangle himself from me, our feet were still pretty entwined under the bed spread, which meant that he can't be that angry with me.

'Not really. About 20 minutes. We have been asleep for hours' he yawned obviously still a little tired.

I couldn't really blame him for being tired. The panic attack alone makes him really tired and he'd had his first nights sleep in days last night - he was entitled to still be tired.

'What's the time?' I mumbled.

'About 1.30'

'Pm?' I scoffed sitting up in total shock.

Thankfully it was a bloody Saturday because otherwise I would have freaked out even more.

I sat up in the bed in absolute shock that I had managed to sleep this long and went to jump out when John grabbed my wrist and pulled me back in.

'What are you doing? I've got to get back to the hospital. Poppy has chemo and the kids need feeding and Evie will be wondering where we ar--'

I was cut off by John's finger on my lips telling me to hush.

'Richard went to chemo with Poppy this morning. He is currently snuggled up on the hospital bed with her reading her stories. See I even have a selfie to prove it' John smiled showing me.

'That--'

He hushed me again.

'Richard popped in on Evie in the early hours and she was still asleep. We're yet to be informed of her progress' John explained.

'Whilst the best daughter in the world got up and made herself and her baby brother breakfast then chose his outfit out and even managed to get him to clean his teeth. Then we made you breakfast' Avia said as she came running into the room with Henry just behind her.

She had obviously been keeping him out of here whilst we were sleeping.

'Why didn't you wake us. You shouldn't be doing all this'

'Because Poppy is sick and now Evie is sick so I'm just helping out. Lilly said we can go over and play at hers this after noon so you can go and see Evie' she said with a shrug as Henry jumped on the bed and I pulled the bed sheet right up over me.

John however wasn't so naked anymore as he had his pants and pyjama trousers on.

I however sleep like the dead so if I'm naked falling asleep that's how I'll be until I wake up.

I generally try to put something on before I fall asleep knowing that but obviously last night I didn't bother.

'No. Henry can go and play with Ollie. You can come with us to the hospital' John smiled as I gave him a disapproving look. 'If she can look after Henry all morning like an adult then she is adult enough to come and see Poppy. And it might do her some good'

- - -

We took our time getting up and getting dressed and quite honestly it was half past three before we got to the hospital.

John went straight up to see Poppy with avia whereas I went to the children's ward to see Evie where Richard was standing outside.

'I thought you were with Poppy?'

'Poppy went to sleep so I figured I could come down. How's John this morning?'

'He seems better. I told him he would feel much better after more than 12 hours sleep and he seems in better spirits' I shrugged. 'Is she okay?' I asked suddenly seeing how Richard was looking through the glass.

'Yeah she's fine. Bit shaken from the the fit still and vomiting because the they tried her on weren't agreeing but she's okay' he explained.

'Your tired now Richard. Go home and sleep... actually scrap that both boys are with Lilly - go to ours and sleep. You deserve it' I hummed.

'Yeah. Things are just difficult at the moment'

'Why do you seem so dazed?'

'John has told me loads of time what chemo is like for Poppy - but I'd never seen it done. I had to put on a special top and everything for scans. It was scary. What was worse was seeing her that way. If that was Ollie I'd be in pieces. How can you just watch Poppy go through it?'

'You have too. You have to get through everyday knowing that it's helping. Every bit of pain is worth so much happiness' I mumbled.

'Even just looking at Evie vomiting makes me want to run in and help. I never even knew she was my kid for the first 7 years of her life but look how much o love her now'

'You always loved Evie Richard. You and her had a special bond from the very beginning - you just didn't understand why.... and that was my fault. I should have told you. I should have said that she was your baby girl. I would have saved you all this heartache down the line ' I mumbled sadly.

'Is if selfish that I'm glad it's not Evie with the leukaemia'

'Yes... but at the same time no' I laughed patting him on the back. 'Right come on... it's time for you to home and sleep. Your dismissed' I smirked.

'I'm okay'

'John said that a few hours ago and then he passed out in a forest. In all seriousness... go home' I said rolling my eyes.

- - -

'Hey Evie. How you doing?' I whispered as we were sat in a dark room.

It was most likely the light that was affecting her, although one of the doctors thinks it could be a severe allergic reaction to something and was more like shock.

'I dunno. My head feels funny' she complained.

'Nothing a couple of weeks rest won't cure' someone said in the doorway.

'She's okay?'

'She's okay' the doctor confirmed making me feel much less guilty about this whole thing.

I should have been there for her. I should have been keeping an eye on what she was doing but because in stuck in this Fucking hospital I can't.