"Options... I've ran out of Options..." (Book 3)

Chapter 161 - "Hot Chocolate O'Clock..."

Chapter 161 - "Hot Chocolate O'Clock..."

Clara's PoV

At that point I just did the only thing I could think of doing and that was to just wander down the stairs.

I had been pretty much chucked out of my bedroom so the only option was to go downstairs.

I would have gone back to the spare room in the basement where I had made myself quite comfortable recently but I wouldn't be able to go that long without being near my baby so the lounge it was.

When I got to the lounge of course I wasn't alone in the room.

'Look this is getting ridiculous. Go to bed Avia'

'I don't want too. I won't be able to sleep' she scoffed unhappily.

'Why?'

'Because I can't sleep when I'm nervous' she mumbled.

'Why would you be nervous? It's the Summer holidays. All you need to look forward too is your next trip to the library or a day out shopping with Daddy?' I grumbled.

'No. I'm worried about going back to school' she mumbled.

She wasn't an open book Avia. I had to pry things out of her so when she admits that she's worried or tells me the problem I get stumped.

It wasn't fair to have this dumped on my whilst I was very sleep deprived but I had to be a grown up and do the motherly thing.

'Do you want some hot chocolate?'

- - -

Albeit, it was a pathetic idea but at the same time it might take her mind off it and to be honest I find personally that hot chocolate makes me quite sleepy.

'Do you want to get the whippet cream out of the fridge?' I suggested as she shrugged and got it out whilst I poured and stirred into our favourite Disney mugs.

We sat back on the sofa where Avia sort of cuddled in quite close to me which is something that she hasn't done since she was 8.

'You know you don't need to be worried about big school. Your going to love it. And they have an even bigger library there than primary school'

'It's not that. None of my friends are going. Daisy is going to Oak hill and so James. I'll be all on my own' she pouted.

'And you'll make new friends but you can still keep your old ones. You'll be fine' I hummed as she didn't believe me.

'You know when I started secondary school I had to leave all my friends behind because I moved house. In fact I moved county's. I went from living in Blackpool where everyone knew each other to living in London. I had to make new friends'

'And did you?'

'Well... I met your Dad'

'In year 7?'

'I knew of him in year 7. Then he went to America for two years but when he came back in year 10 we became really good friends' I explained.

'Oh' she hummed.

'What I'm trying to say very badly here is that you will make lots of new friends and you'll loose some friends but you will make some even better friends. Other than your dad the only other person that I still talk to that I went to big school with is Richard - and he doesn't count because he really hates me then' I laughed ruffling her hair.

'I think I'll go to bed now Mummy. Thanks' she whispered. 'And I lied earlier. Poppy wasn't scared. I was. So I asked her to come to my bed. Don't blame her' she sighed plopping up the stairs two at a time.

- - -

'Ugh. Make more noise please Clara. It's bad enough that you've woken me up with your banging and crashing around at 4 in the morning but please don't wake him up' John begged as I climbed back into bed.

'Sorry' I whispered although I wasn't particularly.

'Why have you been up for so long?' He scoffed rolling over to look at me anyway.

'Oh. Avia was up still. We were chatting. She said she was worried about going to secondary school and that she was going to be the only one there'

'Oh blimey. That's a little deep for 4am' John yawned.

'Hmm. I just bullshitted some crap about us being friends and how I still talk to you now' I shrugged.

'Whoa. You've missed a lot through the way there Clara' he smirked as I leant up to peck him on the mouth in the dark and smiled.

'Yes but she doesn't need to know that and my alcoholic past is hardly relevant is it?' I pointed out snuggling in to him and closing my eyes - unfortunately I still just could not get to sleep.

- - -

'For gods sake why are you still awake?' John growled.

'Why are you still awake?' I hummed back.

'Because your Fucking awake keeping me up' he sighed. He was annoyed but he wasn't that annoyed.

He had gotten a good two hours sleep which would get him through a few more days.

'I don't know what is wrong with me tonight. I'm just so wide awake and it's not like I've even got the excuse of feeding Harry because he is being very good tonight' I shrugged.

'Yeah he's being too good really isn't he?' John said standing up and leaning over the basket.

'No don't wake him up you idiot. Leave it' i said grabbing his wrists and flicking them away from the baby.