Merder

Discharged

When I woke up Mer wasn't next to me anymore. I turned on the tv to watch some news. Alex came in and I turned it off.
" rainstorm coming through this weekend." He said
" Yepp."
" yeah."
" what's up alex."
" I just wanted to say thanks for yelling at arizona I think she needed it."
I smiled and started to laugh. Mer came in.
" what did you do?" She asked
" nothing."
" I didn't yell at her I just told her the truth and sometimes I don't even know if I'm telling the truth."
" what is he talking about?" Alex asked
" he told arizona we were all going to make it."
" ohh."
" cause I've been in this hospital for two weeks and i have a hand injury!"
" derek stop."
" it's a minor injury and i can't even leave."
" Derek it's not funny stop!"
" I mean a hand injury!"
" DEREK STOP! NOBODY'S INJURY IS MINOR OKAY NOBODY'S! JUST STOP TALKING ABOUT IT!" Mer yelled. She walked away.
" do you want me to?" Alex asked
" no I got it" I got up and followed her into the hall.
" Mer stop!" I yelled. She turned around.
" I can't do this derek I just can't."
" you can't do what?"
" this happened and I hate when people joke about it."
" okay I won't anymore I'm sorry I won't joke about it. I love you. It's okay. It's all going to be okay."
I held her close to my body.
" what are we going to do?"
" we are going to wait."
" I don't want to wait I want things back to the way they were."
" I know you do it's okay."
We went back into my room where everyone was smiling.
" why is everyone so happy?" I asked lying back down in bed.
" we have good news derek." Jackson said
" you can fix my hand?" I guessed
" we haven't figured that out." CALLIE replied
" than what is it?" Mer asked
" You get to go home." April yipped
I smiled.
" gee derek you could be a little more enthusiastic." Richard said. Meredith sighed.
" Mer you wanna step out?"
" no it's okay go ahead just this once though promise?"
" I promise."
" ok go ahead."
" I'm not enthusiastic that I'm going home because I can't do surgery, I can't hold my kids because I can't pick them up, I can't make myself food because I can only use one hand. So no excuse me for not be excited to go home when my other hand is still injured."
Later on that day I went home and sat with the family. My sisters had come down to help Mer and my mom with me. I knew the coming days were going to be boring.

The next morning:

When I woke up Mer was already gone. I got up and went into the kitchen to find a note on the fridge.

Derek,

I'm sorry they called me into work. I'm not gonna be long I'll be home soon. Breakfast in the microwave. Love you. XO Mer.

Great she gets to work and I have to sit home. I didn't want to anymore I was already bored. I called Mark.
" Mark?"
" Derek?"
" how are you feeling?"
" better they think we'll be going home tomorrow."
" you're surgeries?"
" out of the woods healthy as a horse you?"
" still can't use my hand."
" sorry bro."
" mmhmm listen I gotta go I'll talk to you later."
" Yepp okay bye."
We hung up and I called Avery.
" hello?"
" AVERY!"
" derek?"
" yeah I'm bored."
" Aren't you supposed to be resting?"
" I am but do you know how boring it is to sit for hours."
" alright Mer is going to kill me. I need a consult."
" okay I'll drop off the kids at daycare and I'll be there."
" I figured you would be."
I hung up and got the kids ready. Once I dropped them off I texted Jackson.

To Avery:

Where are you?

From Avery:

X-ray room. Room 202.

" what do you got?" I asked walking in.
" is this an operable brain tumor?"
" let me take a look... Umm how old?"
" 36"
" male or female."
" male. He's got 5 kids and a wife."
" yeah let's try to save this guy."
" I'll page Clemens."
" yeah get him in here now."
The door opened.
" Derek? What are you doing here?" Mer asked April right behind her.
" I was bored so I came here to help Jackson with a consult." I gave her a hug and a kiss.
" I can see that... Thanks Jackson."
" sorry he sounded really bored."
" he's supposed to be bored it's called relaxing." April said giving me a hug.
" where are the kids?" Mer asked
" downstairs at the daycare."
" fine but don't do too much you need to rest your hand. When's your next appointment?"
" tomorrow but I think I'm gonna talk to Callie today."
" for what."
" I'm gonna make her fix my hand."
" make her?"
" she'll be able to trust me."
" alright well page me before you go in good luck and have fun love you."
" thanks love you too." She walked out and Clemens walked in.
" dr. Shepherd how's your hand."
" good dr. Clemens thank you. "
" increase in function?"
" not yet."
" it will give it time."
" thanks."
" so what do we got here."
" 36 year old male who's been told multiple times that his brain tumor is inoperable."
" let me take a look..... Mmhmm well it is inoperable unless you think otherwise."
" I do I believe that we can get it out. I would do it myself but my hand."
" then I'll be your puppet."
" really?" Jackson asked
" dr. Avery, you never stop learning especially from each other. Prep the OR. Derek you wanna walk me through this procedure."
" love to, let me give it word for word then we'll practice. "
Once we were ready everyone was in the viewing room. I began my instructions. It was my first time back into an OR, even though I wasn't cutting it felt good. The surgery was a success and I headed home.
" dr. Shepherd!" Clemens called.
" thank you."
" no thank you I needed out of my house or I was going to go crazy."
He giggled " listen I have a few more patients for tomorrow if you wanna come in and take a look. I could need another Neuro opinion."
" I'll be here." I shook his hand and left.
Mer had already gotten the kids and went home.
" Mer?" I called walking into the house.
" hey how was your day?" She came and gave me a hug and kiss.
" mmm good I'm going back tomorrow with Clemens and I will definetly talk to callie tomorrow."
" how'd the doctors appointment go."
" still at 40%."
" well we'll talk to Callie tomorrow and see what she says."
I was so exhausted that once my head but the pillow I was asleep.