𝐋𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐂𝐥𝐮𝐛 ✦ 𝐖𝐨𝐥𝐟𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝

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Song: The Whisp Sings — Winter Aid
TW — Brief mention of suicide

[ Miles ]

I laid in bed, feeling nauseous. There's just this horrible sadness in me. The door opened and Flora sat on my bed. "Miles... Do you wanna talk today?" I looked at Flora a nodded. "Yeah Flor..."

"Can I ask you a question?"

I nodded and she continued. "Why are you so sad she broke up with you? You can find a way better girl Miles!"

"I'm sad because... I was in love. And I can't stop loving her... Even when I try... I wish I could stop... But I'm stuck. I know she still loves me and I still love her and that's why we broke up."

"If you're still in love then just date again!"

"Flora, I wish it were that easy." I thought back at how much we fought and how heated it would get. We were just too different...

"Just go Miles! Go do it anyways! If you love her so much and you know she loves you just as much she probably wants to be boyfriend and girlfriend again! Mommy said if you love someone tell them. You never told her you loved her though, right?"

I nodded and sniffled. "So stop telling me you love her silly goose! I don't like when you cry and she's probably crying too!"

"Flora! Leave your brother alone!" Kate shouted. She sighed and got off my bed. "Bye Miles."

"Bye Flora..."

. . .

The next day I got out of bed. I took a shower, brushed my teeth, got dressed, and ate for the first time in a long time. I got on my horse and rode to the fields. I would check here first. Y/n likes to lie here when she's upset. I tugged on the reigns and got off.

My heart pounded as I walked through the tall grass. A familiar figure was lying down, staring at the sky. "Y/n..."

She sat up and stared at me. My eyes watered and I looked down. "Miles... You shouldn't be here..." she whimpered. I shook my head and looked back up at her. "It was a mistake! We shouldn't have broken up!"

"Miles-"

"No! Y/n I love you! A-and I didn't want to love you because everyone I love will hurt me eventually! And I'm hurt! But I want it to work! I'll change so we can work! We can work together but I... I can't stop loving you. It's so hard. Everything about it. I wish it weren't but it is and I'm willing to work harder for your love. Please, I- I've never loved someone like this. I don't want to loose you without trying to fix it."

I stared at her and watched the tears drip off her chin.

"I wish I didn't love you this much because I don't know how to cope with it. I don't know how to express how much I love you. I never believed in love but when I heard your laugh for the first time... I knew I had been wrong. I've been in love with you since the day we met! And I don't want to loose you without you knowing that. If you want to stay broken up fine. But I won't stop trying because I want you so badly. I would be perfectly happy if I spent the rest of my life in this damn field with you."

I dropped my head and took a few deep breaths. I shook my head, I couldn't get the feeling to go away. My hair and clothes were wet, considering it was sprinkling. "I want you to have everything. Every single fucking thing you could ever want. Because you deserve it, you're such a pure good being. I know I'm bad. I'm a bad person but I know that I truly love you."

She walked over and sat down with me. She grabbed my cheeks and made me look up at her. Her hair was neat and nicely done, as it always was. Her modest cream dress was damp, just as my jacket was. She pulled me in for a kiss, which I returned.

When we pulled away, she rested her forehead against mine. "Miles I love you too. Just as much as you love me. You're not a bad person. I promise. I want to change for this to work too. I want to be yours again. I can't live with the aching pain of your absence." I nodded and hugged her.

"Thank you."

"For what?" She laughed.

"If you hadn't come along... I would've hung myself..."

She pulled away and stared at me. "Miles..." "I know. I was just... Lost, really lost. And really confused and the only thing that could fix that was to end it but you... You made me fall in love with you.. and now I cant stop."

She hugged me and I hugged her back just as tight. "I want to be with you forever Miles. I swear, I'll never leave your side again."

"Thank you Princess... Thank you... I swear, I'll be better for you and I'll never let myself get that low again..."

Short, unedited, and a kinda odd ending.