~My feelings for her~ Elmax

Chapter 8: Sleepover part 3

Max's pov

El fell asleep at the end of the movie. She looked like an angel when she was asleep. Will came back from the boys in his room. He found us sitting on the floor watching the movie,well only me at the moment. He saw El asleep and laughed. "hey max come here for a second" he whispered. I got up quietly so I don't wake her up. We went in Jonathan's room. "so how's everything with you and El" he asked smirking. God why do they keep asking me that I already told them. "I already told you all, everything's alright" I said. He nodded "I'm glad you're keeping her company, Mike's been annoying letely he wants to hang out with her all the time. He even asked why you were both here " he said. "did you tell them we have a sleepover" I asked. "well I wasn't going to until Mike spoke up, he said he wanted to go over to El. He preferred hanging out with her except us, again but I told him she's here with you and got mad" bro this boy I swear he's pissing me off. "what?! Mad for what, being her friend?!" I asked annoyed. "I know right me and the boys told them that you guys deserve to be friends even Dustin got mad at Mike I wasn't the only one thinking they Mike wasn't hanging out with us after El.i don't blame El by the way I'm mad at Mike" he said. "yeah I know will don't worry, Mike hates me and wants El all to him" I said rolling my eyes. "he said." he thinks you'll be a bad influence on el" "WHAT!?!" I yelled a little. He shushed me. "sorry" I said quietly. "I know he's not thinking straight,we told him it's not true and that he was selfish for wanting El all to himself and everything and stayed quiet after, I don't think he gets it though" he said disappointed. I nodded "yeah I don't understand why he hates me so much, he thought I replaced El when I first came to Hawkins? I don't know and I don't care" I said. "yeah you're right, don't stop hanging out with her because of Mike. She looked happy when you came over. She was smiling while talking on the phone earlier" I blushed. So she doesn't hate me? "oh, so she doesn't hate me" I asked. "no of course not I wanted to tell you that to resure you" he said smiling. I smiled back. "hey um, I know you're mad about El mad Mike. I used to be a little too if you want to talk about it" I asked him. He was quiet. "um I don't know why I was so mad about their relationship, its just Mike is my best friend and i hated the fact that he replaced me, us the party just for El, I'm not mad at her I was just a little jealous I guess.." he said quietly looking a bit embarrassed by his answer." yeah I understand" I said. "don't tell the others" he said. "no of course not" I told him. "why were you mad? You wanted her to be with you right?" he said. "um yeah yeah friends I was mostly mad at Mike for getting her away from me that's all" I replied. "yeah, well I should leave you two alone, thanks for talking to me, we never actually have conversations i just realised" he laughed. I laughed too "yeah that's true"i said. I got back to the room to wake her up because we had to go to the other room so Will could sleep. I didn't want to wake her up she's literally an angel." hey El,wake up" she mumbled something which I didn't hear. I chuckled and she finally got up. "did I fall asleep?" she asked confused. "yeah" I chuckled again. She smiled a little while her eyes were still closed. I felt butterflies. "did I miss a lot?" she asked. "not really, just a few good scenes, it was almost at the end so" I siad. "oh alright" she said. "um Will just got back, he wants to sleep, how about we go to the other room to sleep as well?" I asked softly. "yeah of course" she said smiling at me. Her smile melts my heart for some reason. We went into Jonathan's room. I took some blankets and put them on a floor so I can sleep. I heard El laughing behind me. "what's so funny" I chuckled. "you" she said. "me?!" I joked with an amused look. She laughed even more. "I'm not letting you sleep on a floor like a dog, wanna come here with me?" she asked. I was a little nervous about sleeping next to her on the bed. "yeah sure, if you don't mind" I said. "I wouldn't tell you to if I didn't want to" she said laughing. I laughed too. I got up and sat next to her. I wanted to start a conversation not a specific one I just wanted to talk to her. But she started one before me. "so um, how did you meet the boys?" she asked. She didn't look annoyed by the question. She looked genuinely curious. "oh when I first came to Hawkins, I was new at school. Lucas and Dustin came up with me to talk. They invited me to go trick or treating with me. I said yes and we did. Mike was so pissed off by me hanging out with them. He kept saying 'we didn't ask for a new party member' but okay there was nothing I could do about it. I know he's your boyfriend I'm just telling you how it happened. And now we're here" I said smiling at the end. She smiled too. "I'm sorry about Mike, he shouldn't have done that. He made me believe you're bad but you're not. I've only been with you for 2 days and I can see you're a good person"she replied smiling too. I was glad she said that." yeah" I said. "soo how's your and Mike" I curiously asked her smirking. Trying to hide my jealousy. She laughed "yeah everything's okay" she said. Ouch. "good to hear" I said. I paused for a moment. "are you happy with him?" I asked her. Why did I ask her that jesus max. "um yeah I think so, I just get a bit boring staying in my room all day, I sometimes ask him to hang out with all of you but he prefers staying in my room. Just the two of us" she said a bit sad. Jesus Mike. "what? We noticed that but I thought you both didn't want us" I said. "no we want you I just don't want to hang out literally every single day, I wanted to spend time with my friends too. And whenever we did, he just told me to go, I agreed so" she said. "if you don't want to, don't you tell him?" I asked. "I do sometimes, I feel like he'll be mad if I keep telling him I wanna hang out with the party, with him too I'm not gonna leave him alone I don't know why he didn't want to, I would still be there with him but okay" she said. I was getting more mad to Mike. "you can't do whatever he wants, you're supposed to do what you both want in a relationship" I said. "yeah I don't know much of that, from now on I'll try to be myself and tell him how I feel, I didn't know who to talk to about it, i don't want to make him mad and to understand me" she said. "if he loves you he won't be mad, I'm sure he does he's just scared of losing you but doing it in a wrong way" I said smiling to resure her. Even though it hurts a lot to see them together. I wanted El to be happy so I encouraged her and resured her that their relationship will be fine. I couldn't make them break up. Not that I like El.. Its just, I want her to be happy and not feel like a trash. Mike can't do whatever he wants with her. "yeah I agree, I'm surprised that you still support Mike and me after what we've done to you" she said. "I'm mad at Mike because of who he is I don't really care about him not being my friend like the others, and I'm not mad at you, I understand now why you did it so don't worry about it. And I see you happy in your relationship so of course I would support you" I said. Hiding my jealousy. I want her to be happy and forget about the weird stupid feelings and jealously about it. "oh okay thank you Max" she said smiling. I smiled back. The was awkward silence for a minute. "soo how are things with Lucas" she asked smirking like I did in the first place. I sighed "um we're good" I said. She didn't look convinced. "are you sure you're kind of breaking up and getting back together lately" she said. Oop she noticed that, great. "oh um it's just for a little things we argue about, it's not a healthy relationship I know, he pisses me off sometimes I got used to it" I joked. She laughed. There's a thing I didn't tell anyone though. Before I came in the Sleepover. Lucas kept calling me. He called me literally 6 times because I wasn't picking it up. I fell asleep and I heard and. I picked it up after all. He kept asking if he did anything because apparently 'I'm acting weird lately' and I keep telling him that nothing happened. And he wasn't believing me. He keeps asking me whenever I have a bad day. Sometimes when Billy and Neil are literally arguing every day and I have to hear them every night not being able to sleep. I don't like when he's forcing e so I just tell him to take a break and he realizes what he did wes wrong. "are you happy with him" she asked curious. I didn't know what to answer. I looked down thinking what to say. She put her finger and grabbed my chin to look at her and I did. "it's everything alright?" she asked a bit worried. "oh yeah" I said avoiding the question. She noticed I didn't answer. "so are you happy with him?" she asked again. Shit. "oh yeah I guess.." I said. I didn't mean to sound like that but it slipped out like that. She noticed I wasn't really happy with him. "you guess?" she asked confused. I'm actually confused too when it comes to him and me. "oh um, he's just annoying me sometimes. For example when I'm having a bad day, you know when Billy and Neil are fighting and yelling to each other every single day not being able to sleep, I know he cares about me but he asks 1000 times how I am, I told him I was just having a bad day, he wasn't convinced and kept asking again and again. But...when I'm quiet it means I don't want to talk about it. He doesn't understand that though so I just tell him to take a break. And then he gets sad and complain why I do it to his best friend Mike. I feel bad for doing it but I just feel like it. We used to be happier months ago. Maybe it's just me. I'm the problem i shouldn't be breaking up with him for little things"i said trying not to cry in front of her. She looked upset and worried about me. Which surprised me. I don't want attention from her I was just glad I was able to talk to someone about it,and of course I couldn't with the boys since they're his friends. "hey, no it's not your fault. You're not a problem. It's just how you feel and if you don't want to continue with him why should both of you struggle in this relationship, I.. I'm not telling you to do so, its just an advice..sorry I'm not good with advices and all I don't know how to comfort people and- "I cut her off by hugging her. I don't know why I did it I just felt like it." hey, you're good at comforting me you already made me feel better"i told her. I couldn't hold it it anymore. Some tears fell while hugging her. "thank you.." I whispered. "no problem" she said. I pulled back. A few more tears fell and she wiped them off gently. I felt butterflies again. "I've never seen you like this, you're always tough, why do you hide your feelings max?" she asked softly. "I-I don't know, I shouldn't be crying I should be strong" I said. "what, no no you're so strong max, crying doesn't make you weak okay?" Iooked up to her and nodded. "okay.." I chuckled sadly resuring her I'm fine. "I.. We're on a break with Lucas again, I couldn't do it, he says I'm acting weird.. lately and I tell him everything's okay but he keeps asking" I told her. She looked at me sadly. "you did the right thing, if you feel like it do it.. do you want to break up with him for good or?" she asked. I don't know why she's so curious but I'm glad she cares about me. I think she cares about me. Even a little bit. "uh, I kinda want to, I don't want to pressure him with my problems he wouldn't understand. I don't know what I'm feeling towards him anymore I'm just confused.." she didn't know what to say. "oh okay, maybe you should talk about it to him and you'll figure it out together, I'm sure he will understand you. Like you told me. If he loves you he will understand" she lightly chuckled at the end to make me feel better. And she did. "yeah, god what's wrong with me, I'm was going to comfort you and here I am the one crying like a baby" I sadly laughed. "hey, you did comfort me and I thank you for it we comforted each other, that's exactly what I needed. Someone to talk to" she said softly. My heart is racing fast and I felt butterflies again. "yeah me too" I told her. She suddenly hugged me tightly. "I'm glad you opened up to me Max, I'm glad we're friends now l" she told me. Friends. "yeah of course I'm glad we're friends too" I told her. "okay enough emotional time, how about we....read some magazines to cheer us up!!" she offered excitedly. She made me smile and happy. Her smile heals me. "yeah of course I would love to let's go" I laughed. We both sat down on the bed. I started reading the wonder woman comic out loud. She then put her head on my shoulder. I blushed but thank god she couldn't see it. After 20 minutes of reading she got tired "can we sleep now I'm tired" she asked. "yeah I think we should" I told her. She turned off the light with her powers. Cute haha. And we both laid on the bed. I couldn't sleep. I kept thinking about her and how things are at the moment. I feel..happy. I suddenly felt someone on my chest and hands around my weist. It was El. She cuddled with me. I couldn't hold my smile. I blushed and enjoyed the moment. I put my arm around her and we both fell asleep. Of course it was a friendly hug. But I realised I wish  it wasn't. I shouldn't feel like that but I can't help it. We both feel asleep.

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