Everllark fanfic: Forever & Always

Train ride

"Katniss" Peeta says his voice hums on my head. I lift my head off his chest and face him. "What" I gruff. "Are you okay with the situation with Johanna?" he asks. It takes me awhile to reply back. "Yea" I sigh. "Come on let's go eat" he says getting up. "Okay just give me a minute" I say. i decide to shower, to calm my nerves down. My nerves were erratic. The shower was working. I kept it cold, my nerves went haywire for a split second. Once I was finished I know It has been a few minutes.

I enter the dinning room, the kids are at there own separate table munching on loafs of bread. My mom, Haymitch, Effie, Jack, and Johanna are sitting at the main long table. All the food is laid in the middle, in a neat orderly fashion. Turkey, gravy,stuffing, mashed potatoes, rolls, apple sauce, corn,biscuits, apple pie, and some other small desserts. It's like Thanksgiving. I take a seat next to my mom, while Peeta takes one beside me, next to Haymitch. Effie sits in front of him and Johanna sits right in front of me. She stares at her plate, like its so interesting. Jack on the other hand is staring at me, with a hard face.He always has a hard face when he looks at me.  I look away quickly afraid to look at him again. "Cheers for Katniss and Peeta!" Effie says silvery, like a slick blade. Everyone clanks there glass drinks together, even the kids with there plastic baby bottles. I grab them apple sauce and some turkey. I cut the turkey as i set the plates on there table. "Thanks  mommy" Ivy says. "Thanks" Evan says. Yes I have thought them manners. It was the first thing on my mind on raising them. And along with respect and kindness. 

I sit back down sure on what to eat. Now if i wasn't rich, if i was a district 12 girl hunting for food i would be unsure. Like before the games when we first met Haymitch. The food seemed Delicious then now its the same. I grab slices of turkey, stuffing, rolls apple pie, and apple sauce. I dig into the turkey first tender and tasty. Then the stuffing moist and full of chicken flavor. Rolls, hot buttery. Apple sauce, which quenches my thirst. Apple pie, and I'm completely stuffed. I grab a water bottle from the cooler behind me i swig it all down. Peeta grabs seconds. I glance at Johanna who seems to be playing with her food as Jack talks to her. Effie and my mom are deep into a conversation about the wedding. So I can get out on there conversation I check on the kids. They both are not done with there food but I re- fill there bottles.

I sit back on the plushy chair, feeling pregnant again with a stuffed stomach. I  almost fall asleep, peoples conversation's become background noise. More like a muffled noise.I clear out my head and ears, listening. "Haymitch" I say quickly, deciding to thank him to get the train working again. "What sweetheart?" Haymitch questions drinking some wine. He tips the glass, emptying what little left of wine he has."Thanks for getting the train started-and-make sure you stay sober" I say. He faces me from Peeta's side. Peeta grins. "It was no problem Katnip, oh--and I'll make sure I'll stay sober just for your wedding" he chuckles, with a grim face. "Katnip?" I snap. "Yup I decided to call you that now Gale's gone, you know?" He says nibbling on stuffing. "I don't care that Gale is gone, so don't call me that" I say brittle, with despair. "Whatever you want Sweetheart" he says turning to face Effie.

I put the kids to bed kissing them goodnight. "Peeta!" I hiss into our bedroom. He comes out in a nightgown. "Say goodnight to the kids" I say."Of course, when do I never?" he said.  He smiles kissing them both  goodnight. We both decide enter the back of the train. Peeta takes my hand, and we both gaze at the bright shinning stars blurry from the fast moving train. "Katniss?" I hear Johanna's husky voice behind. She stumbles over sitting next to me. "I'm sorry about earlier. I was just..jealous that you have kids and now it's your wedding. Me and Jack are not to that point yet" she sighs gazing outside the train window. "It's fine Johanna, I understand. I'm sorry I went out on you. It will take time. I knew you and Jack where a thing" I say. She hugs me, then tells me goodnight leaving me and Peeta in silence. "Well that was quick" Peeta says. "Yea I  was hoping for a longer apology" i say admitting the truth. 

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Peeta puts his arms around me as I settle in. His warmth radiates around me making me happy and cozy. We haven't talked about the wedding at all these few days. I have to say I am a bit nervous and very excited. Why should I be nervous. It's Peeta, I think.  I have been to a wedding before. Finnick and Annie's. The remembrance makes my heart throbs. Dead. I remember in District 13 Peeta made the cake.It was so beautiful, it was blue, I remember. Like his eyes. I could tell right away with the design of it. No one had to tell me. When I was told Peeta made it tears of happiness swelled into my eyes and i had to be left alone for some time But Haymitch did.  The careful traces of icing where speaking Peeta, Peeta.  This was a great progress for him, remembering. I.I touch his hair, he is here. Never to be touched again, or hurt.I fall asleep to his steady breathing.