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Dean Winchester

Your heart pounded in your ears, your heart ripped through your chest, you couldn't stop the tears from streaming down your face, your body shaking with the need to sob. "I can't to do this anymore." You choked out refusing to look at his eyes, you knew you were breaking him but you had to do this for you, you couldn't spend anymore nights filled with trepidation fearing he wouldn't come home. You couldn't live with the fear of what would happen if you didn't leave now. "Dean, I love you with everything that I am, but I am internally dying, every time I have to say goodbye and wonder if it's the last time I see you makes everything I am hurt. You don't let me hunt with you and I just can't do this. I need a life, I need comfort, I need safety, I need a home."
"But... . you are my home." He answered his voice cracking in the middle, his eyes filling with tears.

You could see the pain over his face, you could almost feel the hurt he was experiencing in his chest but you had given up everything to be with him and you just couldn't do it anymore. You had fought so hard to make this all work but there was only so much fighting you could do. You were both matches, beautifully aflame, but at some stage the fire began to burn before destroying everything completely. But now it was time to take his matches before fire could catch you, you wished you had listened when they said, run as fast as you can. You wish you had another option. "Dean, we are not good for each other, all we do is hurt one another and it isn't healthy, we shouldn't do this."
"Y/n, don't talk like that, we've got through so much and we can get through this. I will give this all up for you in a heart beat."
"But don't you see that's the problem, I can't ask you to do that, if you gave up this life you would be the one who felt like you were dying every day. I truly love you enough to know that I need to let you go, it's selfish for me to think that I can make you choose between the things that you love the most. This is your world and you belong here, I don't. Even if you gave this all away, you wouldn't ever stop; you'd be looking over your shoulder every day and if Sam called you would run off in a moment. You're brother needs you, more than I do. In all reality I think you need him more than me."

"There ain't no me if there ain't no you!" Dean's voice fought, his arms trying to pull you close to him, you put your fist on his chest stopping him. You looked into his eyes knowing that this was ripping him apart as much as if was ripping into you. But sometimes the only way to really survive was to break everything, to be destroyed so that you could rise from the ashes. It was the only way to save him in the end and you had to do whatever it took to make sure that happened.
"Dean, you need to let me go."
"No, you don't understand how much you mean to me y/n. The day that I met you, you finally made my life worth living, you gave me a reason, a purpose and I cannot live this life without you."
"Yes you can, you've survived apocalypses without me, I am not going to keep us in this vicious cycle. All we are doing is going around in this self deprecating circle of hurt and brokenness. I will never stop loving you, but it's because I love you, I have to go." You finished, your heart inside you shattered into a million pieces. You never knew if you were going to heal from this but there were no other options, no other solution you could see. This life killed everyone and you couldn't bare to find out it had killed him, especially if it was your fault; it would be the worst torture you had experienced, you needed to save yourself, you needed to get away. Maybe too if you weren't in his life, he wouldn't put himself on the line so much with a need to protect you, instead he would just do his job and in the end be safer for it.
"Y/n, please, listen to me," He begged, gripping your hand, appealing for you to hear him. "If you love me, if you truly love me, you wouldn't go. Please, I'll do anything to make you stay, I want you in my life, I need you. Please, I'll do anything. I love you." His voice was so broken, his eyes were drowning in tears, you could hear his insides at war with each other, the hurt becoming all to much.
"If you love me, let me go." You whispered.
You knew you would be hated forever for this. You were the girl that would break Dean Winchester and ensure he could never love again. But you were also the girl who Dean Winchester broke, you would never live again, sure you would be alive but that didn't mean you would be living. The rational part of you told you what you were doing was wrong, that you would regret this forever but at the same time your heart knew that this was what needed to happen. Nothing in this world lasted forever, not even you and Dean. His hand dropped from yours, completely and utterly defeated, he looked like he had been punched in the gut and you would never forgive yourself for what you had done to him.