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Dean Winchester AU Part Three

Christmas AU
Dean's P.O.V
When I walked in the door the house was unusually quiet, I walked further into the house and found y/n on the couch "where are the kids at " I asked taking off my coat and loosening my tie.
She took a deep breath and spoke "They're upstairs in their rooms" she said standing up from the couch and walking towards me "Do you know what today was?" She asked anger coming off of her in waves.
I was completely confused "What are you talking about y/n, what's today?". I asked her but as soon as the word left my mouth I knew I had said something wrong.
"Wow Dean, the fact that you have no idea astounds me, they are your kids and you have no idea what's going on in their lives, today was so important for him, he really wanted you there, and then you didn't show up, you let him down" her words hit me like a wrecking ball and I didn't even know what I missed, my mind was spinning trying to figure it out.
I didn't realize I was still standing there until I felt something tug at my arm, pulling myself from my stupor I look down and see the flaming red hair of charlie with a sad look on her face.
"Alright what did I do this time" I asked kneeling down so I could look her in the eye.
She shrugged her shoulders "Oh nothing just Ben's championship game, they won by the way" she said with her green eyes blazing and anger finding it's way into her voice.
Dread swept through me, I missed his game, his huge basketball game, I was supposed to bring snacks and everything, and I didn't make it, ugh what was I becoming?
"where's y/n, she promised she would say goodbye" Charlie asked looking around the living room.
I got up off my knees and looked around as well, I didn't even notice she left, sheesh I really messed up this time "Stay here with your brother I'll go look for her" I said grabbing my coat and walking out into the frigid air.

I trudged through the snowy streets until I came upon a park lit up with christmas lights, walking closer I see y/n walking through looking up at the trees, When I'm finally close enough to reach out and touch her I pause and admire the little half smile that found it's way to her face, and the way her skin glows under the soft shine of the lights, god she was beautiful, and kind, and happy, she brought the kids so much happiness, something I haven't been able to do for what seems like forever.
I finally reached out and tapped her shoulder, she jumped then turned to look at me, her big y/e/c eyes boring into mine "Charlie came down after you left and told about Ben's game, I can't even believe I did that, I was in a meeting and..." I paused and looked at the trees before continuing "I know that's not a good enough excuse, it's just work is so hectic this time of year". I said turning to her, begging her to understand.
Her voice lost some of it's edge when she replied "Christmas is not the time of year to forget things, it's not a time to focus on your job, christmas isn't about you or the lights, or the trees, or anything like that, it's about family, it's about being together, helping each other, I know that after your wife died you lost that, It didn't start right away, every year without her you got complacent and forgot what it felt like".
My eyes widened with shock how did she find out that much, she sighed and then continued "I didn't figure that all out on my own, Charlie and Ben told me, they see things, things you don't expect kids to notice, they know more than we think they do, and understand more then we want them to".
I froze, I just stood there like an idiot for I don't know how long before she just walked away, and I let her. Her words hurt to hear, losing Lisa was hard on me and the kids, without her there I just couldn't find it in me to keep up with the old traditions she used to do, they always reminded me of her, y/n was right I knew she was right so why couldn't I just say it, instead I let her walk away.
I watched her form retreat into the distance while I remained glued to that spot, My mind was filled with thoughts of y/n her kindness, her joy, her love of christmas, and I couldn't help but think how she was everything I wanted to be, how she was everything the kids and I needed, how she had become so important not only to the kids but to me as well, how I had fallen in love with her.
There was no way I was going to lose another woman I loved so I kicked into high gear and tore down the street after her

I finally made it back and found y/n with her car door open ready to leave, she must have heard me because she quickly spins around "Dean what's wrong is everything..." but before she can finish I bring my hands up to cup her face and kissed her.
She didn't move for a moment and then suddenly she was kissing me back, she wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled herself closer to me, I deepened the kiss and held her tightly in my arms, I never wanted to let go but as suddenly as the kiss began it ended, she wrenched away from me.
I felt empty without her, I reached out to pull her back but she was already in her car, then my heart sank, What did I do? The last thing I wanted to do was to make her uncomfortable and leave but that's exactly what she was doing Y/n wait, y/n I'm sorry come back" I yelled as the car started to back up.
Ben and charlie must have heard me yell because they were next to me watching y/n drive away, they were yelling for her to stop, that she promised to say goodbye but I knew she was to far gone to hear what they were yelling, looking down at them they have tears in their eyes.
It couldn't end this way, I ran inside and grabbed my car keys and then walked back out to my car "Come on guys, get in, we need to go find her" I said to charlie and Ben, they jumped in without hesitation and I drove as fast as I dared to y/n's apartment.

We finally pulled up in front of a huge red apartment complex that was decorated for the holiday's, I undo my seatbelt and get out of the car and run to the elevator Ben and charlie beside me.
When we reached her door I rapped twice and waited but there was no answer, I knocked again harder this time and still no reply came, looking around I saw we were alone in the hallway and just kicked the door in.
The apartment had no signs of life anywhere, there was no trace that she had even been here, walking around I looked in her closet, all her clothes were gone, her food was gone, everything was gone, I looked over at the kids and saw utter devastation on their faces which I'm sure was mirrored on my own.
Y/n was gone and from the looks of things she was never coming back back, the worst part is it was all my fault.