paracosm

[ 10 ] PART ONE | REBEL.

PARACOSM

JJK.| PART ONE | REBEL.

A/N

before i start this imagine, i want to tell you guys that bolded and italicized words are lyrics from a song. italicized words are your thoughts. bolded words are just "quotes" from me. now let's get going to the imagine!

ara's POV

'spoke a lot of words, i don't know if i spoke the truth'

it started happening when i first went to school. for small stuff with small consequences. i lied to teachers, they taught us to tell the truth but i guess i never learned. trouble was all that I caused for myself. that earned me detentions and lines.  

but now i'm older, and nothing changed. jungkook, the boy i met in the last few years of high school pulled me out of trouble a lot. he was always there for me. always has been.

we've been dating for three years now, and a lot of people don't agree. i mean who would right? he's an angel and i'm a devil. complete opposites. 

'got so much to lose, got so much to prove'

people would doubt jungkook; why would he stay around someone like me? this caused some to talk bad about him. of course, i'll get in trouble for defending him. trouble might as well be my middle name. 

if someone talks crap about my loved ones, i'll defend them. if something looks dangerous i'll do it. if someone says no i say yes. usually, leading me now to injury or jail. 

'trouble on my left, trouble on my right'

at first, all i got was detentions and lines. then in high school suspensions, then leading to fines. but as I grew older, the consequences became more serious. jail time and fights. here i was, minding my own business at the pub when someone nearly knocked me over. 

"hey watch it," I said annoyed at the girl who 'bumped' me. i rolled my eyes as soon as I got a look at them. three girls all from high school, of course. "oh look, if it isn't ara. still, dating that jungkook of yours? you know you never deserved him. he deserved someone nice, someone, like him. is that why you're at the pub? he finally came to his senses and left you?" she said. 

i clenched my jaw and fists in anger. i couldn't bite my tongue. "and you're at the pub looking for another one night stand?" i retorted. her face grew cold and the three girls stepped closer. but I kept my ground. that's when she shoved me. wrong move. 

'i've been facing trouble almost all my life' 

my head was almost slammed into the police car's bonnet. let's just say i've had a few run-ins with this particular cop and he didn't like me very much. understandable. "ara again hey?" he taunted me. i rolled my eyes as he handcuffed me and threw me on the back seat. it wasn't long until i was back in jail. 

"one call ara, you know how it works," the bored policeman said to me. there was only one person i ever rang. the only person who ever came or picked up. jungkook. 

he picks up almost instantly. "what's happened now babe," i can hear his slightly annoyed tone. i don't blame him. it's nearly 3 am. 

"hey kookie, can you bail me out? i promise this time it wasn't my fault. the girl said you should leave me and then she shoved me. it wasn't my fault," i defended myself. 

"okay okay, i believe you. i'll be there in 20." with that said he hung up. no 'i love you?' i sat down and waited patiently. Not like I have anything else to do. 

'my sweet love, won't you pull me through' 

jungkook walked through the door of the police station wearing jeans and a simple tee. he looked good though, but tired. as for me, i had a few bruises and scratches from the 3 girls but nothing bad. jungkook's seen worse on me. 

the policewoman unlocked the holding cell and i walked out smiling. i went to hug jungkook but he held his hand up. "outside now," his tone slightly scared me. i've never heard him speak like this. he walked outside and i followed like a little kid following their teacher after they got caught drawing on the wall. 

we stood outside the police station and he had his arms crossed. "i'm not pulling through for you again ara." 

"i understand. sorry, kookie," 

"no, i don't think you do. geez, i love you so fucking much but i can't do this with you. i'm breaking up with you." 

"you can't be serious jungkook?" i felt betrayed and sad. like i needed him.

"i am. goodbye ara, hopefully, you'll change," with that said he got in his car and left. i stood there alone and lost. what now? 

'everywhere i look i catch a glimpse of you' 

it's been one week since he left. i was going crazy. i was sitting in a parking lot outside of ikea, just sitting. that's when it happened again. i saw him. jungkook. at least i thought i did. but just another trick of the mind. trick turning into torture. 

i see him, wherever i go, whatever i do. he's always there. but then he's not. just a figure of my imagination and memory to portray my heartache. i didn't think i needed anyone until now. jungkook, all this time had been my hand and i was a kite. 

he pulled me down if i got too out of control. kept me flying but made sure i didn't fly too high. now... now i don't even know what i am. 

the trouble with trouble is that it starts out as so much fun until it becomes a burden. a curse. and dear god i was paying for it. 

'god don't let me lose my mind'