her truth

Jan 7th 2014

Sitting to the ER by herself, Sandra had her head hung to be bouncing her foot to gulp has she waited for the doctor to come back, she kept a hand to her stomach hoping she didn't have a real miscarriage, however she had been bleeding a lot more and passed a lot.
Sandra then looked up to the doctor who came in with her head to the file to eye it over to then go to the computer to place it down to then start to type on the key board. Sandra looked over her in silence for the doctor to then clear her throat to then turn to eye over her.
"So...... Your levels seem to be dropping, you are going through a miscarriage."
Sandras chin quivered a bit to then peer her eyes down.
"Oh?"
"Unfortunately yes."
"Is there.... Anything I did that....."
The doctor shook her head.
"No, these things just happen, didn't seem like the pregnancy was viable this would have occurred."
Sandra signed to then nod..
"What's.... Next?"
"The next few days you will have cramping and bleeding, all perfectly normal, you were only 3 weeks along and...."
Sandra turned her head has the doctors voice seemed to be far away. Even though the doctor said she had been only 3 weeks along, that was still her baby that wasn't even able to make it.
She then got up to keep her head hung to nod to thank the doctor to then leave to take in deep breathes has she went to her car to go to work, she dialed Diego to call him to let him know. Sandra had asked for him to go with her however work seemed to be more important to him.
"So, what did the doctor say?"
"I..... Miscarried."
"Ooh.... Well..... It just wasn't meant to be, so after work are you going to come to my mom's? I want to go to suls."
Sandra made a hard face to take in a deep breathe to dart her eyes has she went about traffic to get to work .
"Um.... The doctor told me to take it easy. I'm just going to do my shift and then I want to relax at my dad's."
"Okay. Whatever."
Sandra rolled her eyes to then turn off her phone to place to the passenger side to then shake her head to go to work without much of a happy expression.
Working at a pizzeria, she looked to what she was doing without trying to cry. Sandra couldn't believe she was once pregnant and now she wasn't.
Sandra signed to make a hard face to shake her head.
She also didn't like the fact Diego didn't seem to care and he was going to continue to live his life like that. Sandra didn't want to go and drink and he did.
Turning about Sandra went on with her day to be very depressed, about to go back to her father's place, she was to the couch to lay to her side to be eyeing the television without really talking.
Her father who was to his chair had his arms crossed over his chest to be looking to the television to then turn his head to look over Sandra.
"So..... No Diego today?"
Sandra shook her head.
"What..... Did the doctor say?"
Sandra closed her eyes to have her chin quiver.
"I..... Lost the baby."
Robert looked over her to then turn his head to look to the television.
"I'm..... So sorry to hear that."
"It's.... Whatever."
Her father turned his head to look at her again.
"It's not a whatever Sandra."
"Mm.... That's what Diego said."
"Sounds like that boy is an idiot."
Sandra opened her eyes to have tears fall to look to the television.
"Yeah..... Yeah he is. Dad....I don't really want to talk about this anymore."
"For what it's worth, maybe this is a blessing in disguise. Diego doesn't seem to be treating my baby all that well."
Sandra signed. She then got up to go to the bathroom to be alone.
Inside, Sandra sat to the floor to wrap her arms about herself to look to the floor to live herself up and down to let the tears fall quietly, she didn't want her father to know she was crying.
After, she was able to fix herself to go out to see her father's door closed to then go back to the couch to lay to her side to feel more blood come out to her pad for her to go to get back to place her hands to her eyes to cry and hard.
She hated what she was going through, despised it, has she knew she was passing her child.
Once things calmed down Sandra moved her hands to either side of herself to look to the ceiling to dart her eyes without thinking about anything. She didn't know what to do, there was no hope in any of this, hope was something she was taught by her father but the was nothing hopeful here. Sandra baby was never ever coming back and there was nothing she could do to stop this miscarriage.
Sandra then turned to go back to her side to look to the television to then peer her eyes down to grab her phone to look to make a face. Diego hadent texted her not even once.
Sandra signed has she looked to her phone to then let it drop to place her hands under her head to look back at the television to start to see Diego in a different light, she couldn't believe he didn't miss work to go with her to the ER she couldn't believe he was with his friends to go out and drink, kind of like he was celebrating or something, Sandra then gritted her teeth has things Diego had said and done to her were coming into her mind, Sandra was starting to get really mad at herself for continuing on with this relationship, Sandra really didn't know if she could do it any more. Sandra then signed to slowly go to sleep with thinking of how badly Diego treated her and this situation.