her truth

starting to find my worth

After Sandra's miscarriage, she started to go more into her own life then to hang out with Diego and be immersed into his. Sandra graduated from her college a bit ago and she was being a delivery driver given she just wanted to have some time to relax in her life to which Diego made fun of her and a lot.
Sandra however pushed that negativity and taunting to the side to live her life for herself for a change.
Soon she was able to make enough money to then Afford an apartment, she lived more closer to her one sister Brita then her other family and Sandra was able to be semi close to her father.
Has the weeks went by she started to really like her life because she was able to relax has she also got calls from her school that was trying to help her to become a producer.
The only thing so far to her life that wasn't so great was Diego. He was stuck to his own, where he was always to his mother's and to his friends to do drugs and drink, Sandra didn't want that to be her life anymore. She got over drinking a lot when she was 21, Sandra understood why Diego wanted to keep acting like a kid, since he was in jail when he was 21 and he never got to experience all what he is now but this was not the life for Sandra.
To her apartment after a long day of work, Diego came over with a television for them to watch it for Sandra to sign, she didn't feel what she used to when she hung out with Diego, peering her eyes to the side, she looked to see he was in his phone to be texting his ex wife.
Sandra rolled her eyes to then get up to go to the bathroom.
"You know..... I'm really tired. I have an early start tomorrow, can you go home tonight."
Diego watched Sandra go to then get up shrugging to then leave.
Sandra to her bathroom shook her head to then eye over herself. She wanted better and Sandra was knowing she needed better.
Sandra signed to then leave her bathroom to then get ready for bed.
In a two week period, the two were growing in distance, still had sex but it was awkward, one of the days Diego took Sandra home, they sat to his BMW for sandra to be looking to her father's place since she still went over to take care of him to gulp.
Diego darted his eyes to keep his eyes forward.
"We're.... Not breaking up Sandra."
Sandra looked to Diego.
"Yes we are. I don't want to go out with you anymore. You are overly obsessed with your first wife."
"I am not."
"Diego.... Your texting her again. I'm sick of the disrespect of this. There is also a lot of other things. You and I..... I just don't think we're.... Suppose to be together anymore. I'm growing in this direction, your growing in that."
Diego turned his head to look to sandra.
"We are not going to break up. I can stop texting her. I can be better Sandra."
Sandra hung her head to look down.
"You keep saying that and nothing ever changes. I think..... My miscarriage was a sign, don't think we should keep continuing this relationship."
"I believe we should. I love you Sandra."
Sandra signed.
"I don't think you do. It's.... Over Diego."
Sandra then placed her hand to the door to then get up to then sign has she heard Diego under his breathe call her a bitch to then leave the bmw to turn to watch has he reversed back and hard to then leave.
Sandra watched Diego go to then play with her fingers to stand there for a moment to then wrap her arms about herself to gulp, signing she turned to then go into her father's house.
Going to the couch, she sat to look to the dark television to eye it over to not feel sadness from this break up but happiness, Sandra knew this relationship was toxic, she knew Diego treated her very badly, knew he wasn't going to change.
Sandra took in a very deep breathe to then get up to go to the kitchen to make herself something to eat with a face..
There were parts of Diego she was going to miss, however the good was being out wade by the bad, things between them were but has good has they used to be and Sandra didn't like the person she was becoming, which was drawn back, more quiet, let a lot of things slide in the name of love.
Sandra also wasent convinced that Diego really loved her, why because you don't hurt the people that you love. Also she didn't like when she had that miscarriage Diego was not at all there for her, neither was his mother, the family didn't say anything about it, didn't seem to be bothered about it either.
Sandra signed to grab her plate of food to then place it to the ground to go to the couch to lay to her side has she started to feel sad. Sandra did like his sister and brother, his mother and step father, they were nice and she had a lot of fun with them however she couldn't deal with there son anymore, he was not a real good person.
Sandra took in a very deep breathe to then wrap her arms about herself to let a few tears fall, she was still in love with Diego but knew he was just not at all right for her.
Sandra then shuffled to her back to take in very deep breathes.
Everything will be okay, eventually I'll move on, he will move on, I just need to breathe and start to live my life again.
Sandra then grabbed her phone to go to her social media to then change her relationship status from in a relationship to single to then lay her phone to the ground to look to the ceiling has more tears went down.