her truth

life isn't getting better

Has days rolled has they did, her relationship with her ex didn't get any better, he treated Sandra worse and worse and when they got physical Sandra would just lay there and act like she liked it so it could get over quickly, sex with Diego hurt, he thought he could accomplish a few things but because he had a small dick it didn't really work that way which would cause a lot of discomfort for Sandra, she did try to tell him about it to which he wouldn't say a thing or would laugh it off.
There was duality to this though, it often hurt or there was discomfort, or Sandra wouldn't feel it at all, Sandra never ever told Diego about that but she would often tell her sister's who either would laugh or offer her advice on what to do, Sandra didn't really take it given she didn't really like to have sex with Diego, Sandra even had to out source for her pleasure, at the age of 29 Sandra was discovering vibrators and they were a lot better then Diego, they did try when she was 28 however it made him lose his hard on.
Sandra was just trying to find different ways to feel good when they had sex given that wasn't always what was happening, now when her girls would be to there grandmother's she would use one just to feel something.
Has to her current moment, Diego was deep in her, but Sandra kept her head to the side to act like she liked it even though she really didn't until Diego pulled out to cum all over her stomach to then go to the side to breathe heavily with a smile .
"That was great."
Sandra rolled her eyes to then get up to go to the bathroom to clean herself to roll her eyes.
Yes.... Great.. 
Sandra then signed has she heard Diego get up and quick to go to get his boxers from the dresser to then go to unlock he door has Emily was before it to be crying, Sandra then turned to go and grab something from the closet to then place on to go out to see Diego with his back to Emily, to see her sitting up in the bed to her crying to have her arms out beckoning for her mother, before sandra could go to her daughter, Sandra turned her head to then go to the girls room to get Sarah given she started to cry has well, Sandra signed has she came back.
She didn't get that much sleep anymore, she was also trying to get her girls to sleep in the room however it was a difficulty and it wasn't always because of them. Diego didn't help at all and when the crying got to be too much he would go and gather the girls to bring them in the bedroom.
Sandra then went about to place Sarah next to Emily for them to cuddle with the other for Sandra to then go to sleep to the edge to make a face, she was almost going to fall off, moving up she saw everyone asleep for her to roll her eyes to then grab her pillow to then go downstairs to sleep on the couch to warp her arms about herself to look forward to see all the blinking lights to then turn about to close get irritated with this.
Sandra needed a partner not a person she had to constantly fight with, the girls were old enough to be sleeping in there own beds, Sandra didn't mind co sleeping but the girls were almost 6 and 4. However this was an argument that kept going and going without any resolution.
Sandra signed to then go to sleep irritated to wake up sore given she had to sleep on the couch again.
The next morning, she was very exhausted to make breakfast for everyone to then have her hand to her head to look forward to see her girls eating there breakfast with enjoyment, to then peer her eyes to the side to see Diego you the brown chair to have the television to what he wanted to watch to be laughing and eating the food to then look to her father who was eating also to be to his tablet, Sandra then looked down to her food to sign.
She was so very tired, she was thinking about asking Diego to watch the girls so she could sleep more however that always was an argument has well.
Sandra then looked up to straighten herself to part her lips has she heard her dad talking to then get up to go over.
Her father had moved about to sit to take his phone from his ear to look at it with sadness.
"I'm so sorry to hear dad. Did he suffer?"
Her father looked to Sandra you shake his head.
"No, your grand father died in his sleep."
Sandra made a hard face to then look down. After a year ish to the senior home, about a few weeks ago, her grand father went to an living space her grand mother went to, too get better, he's health was failing though and no one thought he was going to come out of there, because of covid there was a restriction to who could see him, Sandra gave up her chance to say her good byes so her one sister, Uncle and her dad could do that.
Her dad just look over the phone with a sad face for Sandra to then turn her head to look at Diego, who she knew heard that, to hear him laughing, Sandra rolled her eyes to then comfort her dad, to then leave him for a bit to go upstairs to go to her bathroom, to then close and lock the door to then be to her butt to have a hand over her mouth to then cry, she often did this because of Diego, Sandra knew how to hide her pain and well. Sandra lost not just one grand parent but another and life was just going to keep badly impacting her and hard.